Maggi’s Quest…

I left Sacramento and moved to Livermore and tried my hand at a couple of jobs over the years… the 1st one was a Nanny and I quickly found out, I wasn’t made to take care of anyone’s kids… I was still one…

I tried working at a diner, on the graveyard shift… now that was an interesting experience… I eventually ended up working for Macy’s and found out quickly, cleaning up after assholes was not my idea of fun…

Along that time period I got pregnant at 19… By the time I was 20, I was soon to become a mother… Not well equipped with the examples I had growing up, I did the best I could with the tools I had… but I knew early on, motherhood would be a struggle for me…

I got married a year after the birth of my first child and it didn’t last… He was a swinger, though he professed to be a practicing catholic… and decided that the night before he left for basic training, he would have a fling at the party I threw for him… needless to say, the marriage would end in divorce, but not like you would think…

I met a young good-looking man in 1976, though I was separated from my husband, so still legally married… this young man was going to Italy to a remote assignment in a little town Cole Isarco on the Brenner pass… some how I either convinced him to take me an my son or he convinced me… but to Italy I went…

While living there, we had a major earth quake while being at the AFB and ended up camping out on the flight line with hundreds of other families… and not having any birth control on me, I got pregnant… Not what I had planned with my life, have more kids… but another child I was given….

A month after his birth, my divorce from the 1st husband is final and my child’s father an I marry… It was the only way I could enter the Air Force…  Some how my sister agreed to take the kids while I went to basic training, so less than 3 months after the birth of my last child I was in the Air Force, talk about losing the baby weight at basic…

It was a roller coaster ride from hell, that is the way I see it… Not knowing I had traumatic brain injuries, becoming a mother and joining the military… You could say, Pandora’s box had nothing on the hell my life was fast becoming…

The marriage didn’t last, but I remarried again, which it too didn’t last and I married again… Now that 4th marriage I tried to make work… 

During that time I am serving active duty and all the while I am having one medical issue after another… after a time the doctors said it was all psychosomatic… but we know it wasn’t… but they had a reason…

A child had been raped and to keep the base from being embarrassed and to let a Chief Master Sargeant retire, his career was more important than mine… Even though I had just re-enlisted for another 4 years…

So I lost my military career and left with a reputation that I didn’t even get a chance to earn… Now you get why I take such issue with fake news and gossip… It destroys lives and mine was one of those…

Though I had done nothing wrong, I was pushed out… They had to give me an honorable discharge… and I did what any intelligent woman would do, I fought back…

We go to Japan, as I am still married to a military member… I get poked and prodded, shipped off to Trippler on Hawaii and get told I have Paget’s disease… We are sent back to the U.S. and the specialist says, “You do not have Pagets’s, but I don’t know what is wrong with you”… that was 1987…

So I end up getting another divorce…. Marry again and move to Okanogan county Washington for a job with USDA and I divorce that asshole… 

I did all this before the age of 38… All the while trying to be a mother, trying to give the kids what they want… and putting myself last…

By 1993 I had my stomach full of men… I had zero control over my children, one already left home and the other headed for a long time in jail… I was ready to put the gun to my head and pull the trigger in a manner of speaking… but crazy as I am… I value life…

No matter how hard it had been, no matter how hard it would get, no matter what the end results may be… I value life…

I fought to hard to survive the first 18 years on this planet… I wasn’t about to let a little frustration and 5 divorces be the final chapter…..

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Times Up #MeToo

I Remember….

Author: maggi9454

Domestic violence, rape and assault are not new in America or the world... but it is accepted in the highest offices of our government in America... The catholic church, in congress and the white house... you can use and abuse people as long as you can make everyone believe the words coming out of your mouth.... My body shows the evidence of domestic violence and Air Force cover up... I am just one among millions whose government was complicit in rape and domestic violence... Until women step up and vote with their voice... Men in power, will protect men in power and do it in the name of your god and country.... Your voice, your vote...