Maggi goes into the Air Force…

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When I entered the military, I had zero clues that I had suffered multiple brain injuries as a child…or blunt force trauma to my arms, legs and rib cage and back… If you are never told, you don’t know… and I didn’t know… and I was never told and yes I asked, many times I asked…

To this day it amazes me how my parents got away with it, living among other military families and even in the rice patties at Johnson AFB when I got one in 68 and another on Okinawa in 72… No one turned my parents in…

Going into the military was my choice, so I could support my two kids… I got lucky and went into the medical field and loved it… Though my first job as a dental tech an my first patient, I had to leave the room… breakfast was on its way out…

As time went by, I got a stronger stomach and loved working on patients… I enjoyed surgery the most…

What I found interesting was we had lots of retirees in our area and the majority of them had been in Vietnam… So we had something in common… Dad served in DaNang and I knew lots of GI’s on Okinawa that were back and forth to Vietnam…

The most interesting thing though was the fact that our surgical gloves were defective… and I was exposed to some very nasty diseases by my patients… It wasn’t their fault… It was our cheap ass governments fault…

With in a year of going active duty I was struck sick… the doctors did try very hard to figure it out, but like lots of things back then, science wasn’t up to speed and it would be decades later I would learn what was happening to my body…

I picked up an infection in 78 and that infection has now progressed to give me Polyneuropathy… Will they ever know what it was that infected me, only the test they are now doing will give me that answer…

As a disabled veteran I learned after my discharge the VA wasn’t in the business to heal us, they were in the business to bury us…

We moved to Hawaii a couple of years ago and I got lucky, I have all civilian care… so I am hoping that I will get answers…

Only one thing scares me… They sprayed Agent Orange on Okinawa when I lived there as a teenager… Then they buried it on Okinawa a few years later… These files have been declassified, if you want to research it…

So not only do I have to be concerned about what I got from a patient, but also being exposed to Agent Orange… I watch my father die from Agent Orange, DaNang was the depot for the substance…

What has this to do with my story… I made it through the military with no knowledge that I had a brain injury and the Air Force psych exam I had, got the diagnosis 100% wrong… Scary to think anyone working for the military in psychiatry getting it wrong… but my exam by the El Paso VA in 2011 says they got it so wrong, it’s ridiculous…

If you are a veteran and have been through these kind of exams and you don’t agree with them… go see a civilian psychiatrist who specializes in PTSD and TBI… They may have a different answer for you… I know I was shocked when I got mine… I believed the Air Force idiot for 25 years and regret not pursuing a civilian specialist…

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Author: Adorable Spite

Domestic violence is an old song, sung thru the ages like a hymn and purported to be the way christians live their lives... full of deceit, hate, bigotry and most of all fear... It is that fear that cost me my virginity, my soul and most of all my humanity... I had to fight to keep the christians hands off my soul, but they stole from my body and so did the U. S. Air Force... Rape and attempted murder... but image was more important... Vance AFB and Webb AFB... #WhyIDidntTell #MeToo TimesUP, Circle of Silence is no more....