Resolving Conflict…

Knowing, that is so important to understanding PTSD & TBI… Just that one piece of information can facilitate calmness in so much conflict…

This voyage through a sea of emotions with lots of anger, bewilderment and a shovel load conflict… Is daunting…

As much as I want to move back to the mainland as we are going to be proud great grandparents once again… I know deep down, it’s not the time to move…

I have got to resolve the conflict of emotions I feel over my birth family and the deliberate deceit… I don’t want it eating me alive for the rest of my time on this planet… I would rather spend that time enjoying all that life has to offer… I prefer not to devote time to my birth family, which seems like mount Everest sitting in front of me, waiting to be climbed… It means telling my mind and heart and soul, they are not worth my time… They chose to not tell me of the abuse and the damage… They left a blind child in a maze to wonder for all eternity…

Conflict, it impacts every aspect of every second of my day right now… I have no way to stop it, till my brain quits bringing back memories to interrupt my nights and days… No it’s never just a memory for those of us with PTSD & TBI… It’s our life line to finding us…

Don’t know if I will ever get to the end of this road I like to call the road to know where… I have hope… I will always have HOPE…

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I Remember….

Author: Adorable Spite

Domestic violence is an old song, sung thru the ages like a hymn and purported to be the way christians live their lives... full of deceit, hate, bigotry and most of all fear... It is that fear that cost me my virginity, my soul and most of all my humanity... I had to fight to keep the christians hands off my soul, but they stole from my body and so did the U. S. Air Force... Rape and attempted murder... but image was more important... Vance AFB and Webb AFB... #WhyIDidntTell #MeToo TimesUP, Circle of Silence is no more....