Resolving Conflict…

Knowing, that is so important to understanding PTSD & TBI… Just that one piece of information can facilitate calmness in so much conflict…

This voyage through a sea of emotions with lots of anger, bewilderment and a shovel load conflict… Is daunting…

As much as I want to move back to the mainland as we are going to be proud great grandparents once again… I know deep down, it’s not the time to move…

I have got to resolve the conflict of emotions I feel over my birth family and the deliberate deceit… I don’t want it eating me alive for the rest of my time on this planet… I would rather spend that time enjoying all that life has to offer… I prefer not to devote time to my birth family, which seems like mount Everest sitting in front of me, waiting to be climbed… It means telling my mind and heart and soul, they are not worth my time… They chose to not tell me of the abuse and the damage… They left a blind child in a maze to wonder for all eternity…

Conflict, it impacts every aspect of every second of my day right now… I have no way to stop it, till my brain quits bringing back memories to interrupt my nights and days… No it’s never just a memory for those of us with PTSD & TBI… It’s our life line to finding us…

Don’t know if I will ever get to the end of this road I like to call the road to know where… I have hope… I will always have HOPE…

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I Remember….

Author: maggi9454

My earliest memory is before the age of 2... by the time I was 13, I had no childhood memories... No holidays, no birthdays... On 11/5/17 a shooter in Texas changed all that... It triggered my memories from my 13th year... The Air Force covered it up an it happened in Big Springs, Texas 1967... Domestic violence, PTSD, TBI and I too served in the Air Force 10 years later... This is my story to remember what was stolen...