Wandering in Secret…

I have been lost in my wandering of late… Imagine this, imagine that… what could be, what may be… meandering through my thoughts and asking why I don’t hate… knowing that even I can’t answer that… It was the path I chose to walk in life… My husband chatting as I wonder in my own little world, seeing images float across my view as my brain leaves reality and enjoys some down time… no past, no present, just the here and now as it may only last a minute or two…but they were mine, no one else’s…

It is tired this brain of mine… it’s been on a hunt for over 50 years, it is wanting to let go and move on to the next adventure, where ever that may be… I can not change what is, I have no desire to reach out… 

Yet I have no say… it quits the nightmares for a few nights, rarely more than that, If I follow true to its pattern… so I know, though my wandering is in secret, my brain is on vacation… waiting to be put back to work… psychology was right… little steps, lead to answers…

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I Remember….

Author: Adorable Spite

Domestic violence is an old song, sung thru the ages like a hymn and purported to be the way christians live their lives... full of deceit, hate, bigotry and most of all fear... It is that fear that cost me my virginity, my soul and most of all my humanity... I had to fight to keep the christians hands off my soul, but they stole from my body and so did the U. S. Air Force... Rape and attempted murder... but image was more important... Vance AFB and Webb AFB... #WhyIDidntTell #MeToo TimesUP, Circle of Silence is no more....