Eureka… not…..

I would like to get up every morning and think, that’s it… that is all of the first 18 years of life… there is nothing more to discover… Ya know, if I was only missing a short period of time in my childhood, I am thinking I could easily move on and get on with life… but of course, it’s not going to be that easy… cause why??? I am missing most of my first 18 years… 

Science says that by the time we are adults, we forget most of our childhood… Yet for years on social media, that’s all I see is post about people’s childhood and memories… do you have any idea how disconcerting that is, when you can’t even remember your 13th birthday!!!… Who forgets becoming a teenager???

The more psychology I read and the less I understand, the more I get this feeling that fast this process is not… easy, I wish… no… this whole journey to free Margie is so complicated it makes my head hurt, because it made me think even further outside the box than I already look… My high IQ means nothing, without education…

Though I know I am on the right path, I also know that it is going to be one bumpy, hilly, windy and sometimes flooded road to discovery…

The nightmares still happen, just not like they used too… The depression is still there, just not like it was before… and the fear of what is around the next corner is slowly turning into anticipation, because that means steps closer to the end of this road trip…

So when someone tells you to forget what just happened because it’s just a memory… tell them, not always… you have to remember for it to become, just a memory…

TimesUp #MeToo

I Remember….

Author: Adorable Spite

Domestic violence is an old song, sung thru the ages like a hymn and purported to be the way christians live their lives... full of deceit, hate, bigotry and most of all fear... It is that fear that cost me my virginity, my soul and most of all my humanity... I had to fight to keep the christians hands off my soul, but they stole from my body and so did the U. S. Air Force... Rape and attempted murder... but image was more important... Vance AFB and Webb AFB... #WhyIDidntTell #MeToo TimesUP, Circle of Silence is no more....