Eureka… not…..

I would like to get up every morning and think, that’s it… that is all of the first 18 years of life… there is nothing more to discover… Ya know, if I was only missing a short period of time in my childhood, I am thinking I could easily move on and get on with life… but of course, it’s not going to be that easy… cause why??? I am missing most of my first 18 years… 

Science says that by the time we are adults, we forget most of our childhood… Yet for years on social media, that’s all I see is post about people’s childhood and memories… do you have any idea how disconcerting that is, when you can’t even remember your 13th birthday!!!… Who forgets becoming a teenager???

The more psychology I read and the less I understand, the more I get this feeling that fast this process is not… easy, I wish… no… this whole journey to free Margie is so complicated it makes my head hurt, because it made me think even further outside the box than I already look… My high IQ means nothing, without education…

Though I know I am on the right path, I also know that it is going to be one bumpy, hilly, windy and sometimes flooded road to discovery…

The nightmares still happen, just not like they used too… The depression is still there, just not like it was before… and the fear of what is around the next corner is slowly turning into anticipation, because that means steps closer to the end of this road trip…

So when someone tells you to forget what just happened because it’s just a memory… tell them, not always… you have to remember for it to become, just a memory…

TimesUp #MeToo

I Remember….

Author: maggi9454

My earliest memory is before the age of 2... by the time I was 13, I had no childhood memories... No holidays, no birthdays... On 11/5/17 a shooter in Texas changed all that... It triggered my memories from my 13th year... The Air Force covered it up an it happened in Big Springs, Texas 1967... Domestic violence, PTSD, TBI and I too served in the Air Force 10 years later... This is my story to remember what was stolen...