TBI & PTSD, journey to remember…

By now, you have noticed, I don’t write, If I don’t have anything to write about… and when I do,  that usually means my night was filled with activity…

It’s a fine line you walk, when you push to remember… I could take it super slow and just push it off to deal with at a later date… I did that for 50 years… Every night that I have dreams is an opportunity to clean house…

Not every dream has to do with my childhood… Every once in a while I will have that weird dream that wakes you up or leaves an impression and you shake your head and think that was a fun ride to know where… but, according to the pros, our dreams mean something…don’t know what that something is, for me it was just a nice interruption in the nightly nightmares….

With the volcano doing it’s thing and making life a little more unsettled and having nightmares, sleep is back to take it when you get it… smoke a bowl in the middle of the night to calm the brain and roll back over and finally… you got no control over anyone or anything, including volcanoes…

The depression is there, but not any place close to what it was… I will be the first to acknowledge it is hard to believe anyone would deliberately set out to hurt a child… but the more I hear in the news of current victims… I have to make myself accept… I was thrown away for a corrupt religion and belief…. or it was jealousy… or mental illness…  Since I will never know that answer… I have to accept that though I was a victim of domestic violence… I survived…  So many did not…

Now its just working on freeing Margie, so that her existence is acknowledged and her voice, like so many others is finally heard…

TimesUp #MeToo

I Remember….

Author: maggi9454

Domestic violence, rape and assault are not new in America or the world... but it is accepted in the highest offices of our government in America... The catholic church, in congress and the white house... you can use and abuse people as long as you can make everyone believe the words coming out of your mouth.... My body shows the evidence of domestic violence and Air Force cover up... I am just one among millions whose government was complicit in rape and domestic violence... Until women step up and vote with their voice... Men in power, will protect men in power and do it in the name of your god and country.... Your voice, your vote...