Writing is easy….

According to Mark Twain the man with the touch of story telling… Writing is easy, it’s only words… cross out the wrong ones and you got your story…. I so wish it was that easy…

Just stepping out of my comfort zone and talking about domestic violence, rape, attempted murder, theft, grand larceny… you name it, I got to experience it… How the hell do you write about that… So much happened in my first 39 years on this planet…

All the while living with TBI, PTSD and depression… and never knowing why I had or experienced any of those issues…

Since then my life has been your typical life, kids got married, kids had kids, now those kids are having kids… no one is in jail or addicted to drugs… so yea, I have a typical life…. Now….

Its only now I feel I can go back to that life… Regaining control over some of my memories has allowed a little girl to pass away, knowing that her memory will always live inside of me… as all our childhoods live inside us… that is what molds us into the people we are and the never-ending desire to learn… To make mistakes and learn and grow… that’s all any of us can really hope for…

So no, writing is not easy… there are times my hands shake and my heart races and I remember the rapes or the beatings or the attempted murder and most of, when I remember my mothers hate for that little girl, my heart starts pounding….

Then its gone, in a flash, the emotional moment has passed, the fear is gone and all that is left is me, telling the story of a little girl, whose only mistake was to tell the truth…

TimesUp #MeToo

I Remember….

 

Author: maggi9454

My earliest memory is before the age of 2... by the time I was 13, I had no childhood memories... No holidays, no birthdays... On 11/5/17 a shooter in Texas changed all that... It triggered my memories from my 13th year... The Air Force covered it up an it happened in Big Springs, Texas 1967... Domestic violence, PTSD, TBI and I too served in the Air Force 10 years later... This is my story to remember what was stolen...

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