Humans and Memory…

My hubby brought up a point about memory making… he gets what I am saying, cause I have been telling him about my nightmares for 24 years… so maybe I better explain exactly or as close as I can about my understanding of memory… and all the data and studies and literature I have read on the subject and put it in one short paragraph… or not…

According to science, when the average person makes a memory, it is corrupted within 30 seconds of you forming that memory…. now this is where it gets interesting for me… 

With PTSD, the science says we relive the trauma or attacks or incidents or domestic violence or rape, etc… with PTSD you relive it as if it is happening in that moment and it never alters, it never changes and it always plays out the same… that is what happens with PTSD memories…

With TBI from my perspective of my TBI’s… and what the text books say… You may remember the before or after of the trauma… but rarely do you remember the actual trauma… in my case, I don’t remember all of Big Springs, Texas… thus the move back to the mainland, so I can go back to the scene of the crime… I may have not made memories during the attack portion… that too is an issue with memory… you may have not made any memories during the truama…

Now for people like me who have unique memory abilities and I for one am grateful mine is not high functioning, that means remembering every second of every minute of your life… I am in the more exceptional memory category to Edetic memory category… We can say that, because my first memory is before the age of 2 and it has been verified…

So when I talk about my memories being in color, it means I made the memory and I remember the memory and can prove the memory… In other words I can point out the other players in the memory…. not everybody can lie as good as Trump….

When the memory is in my mind and its in black and white… that is the memory that I will question and search for proof that it is a valid memory I made and not a story that someone in the family told to protect themselves…

The only time I have had a memory go from black and white to color, was Nov 7, 2017… when I told hubby about the picture frozen in time and the ghost of a memory of being covered in bruises and no memory of how I got them… when I started talking about that frozen picture in time, it melted to color and started to play in slow motion and the violence that followed scared me to my core on Nov 7, 2017 and scares me to my core no more… I have accepted the memory and it has been verified…. the black and white picture was gone in an instant, the night Margie died….

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I Remember….

Author: maggi9454

My earliest memory is before the age of 2... by the time I was 13, I had no childhood memories... No holidays, no birthdays... On 11/5/17 a shooter in Texas changed all that... It triggered my memories from my 13th year... The Air Force covered it up an it happened in Big Springs, Texas 1967... Domestic violence, PTSD, TBI and I too served in the Air Force 10 years later... This is my story to remember what was stolen...