Wet days make for packing….

As I start my day, its wet, lots of rain caused by the heat from the lava flow near us… you would think we would be nervous or scared because of the lava flow… the reality of it is… its localized… Volcanoes don’t act the way they do in movies… the most annoying thing about the lava flow is when the trade winds drop or stop and we get hit with the smell, but it doesn’t last long… So no, living here is not scary… I lived on Japan in the 80’s and we felt earth quakes daily and I mean daily and usually more than one could be felt… no different here if you live in the little town of Volcano… That is life on an active volcano…

We have zero damage at our house… the 6.9 we felt when this all started 88 days ago, didn’t even damage our drywall… we also rarely feel the earth quakes… No we get the best of all worlds here… drive a little bit and you got sun, go another direction and you are in a desert environment, go another way and its pouring rain…go another direction and its sunny and hot and beautiful… I think we have 9 distinct climate zones on our island and with the active lava flow, that may be changed to 10… cause we are getting enough rain to keep our grass-green and the flowers and trees thriving… plus we are seeing lots of new wildlife on our little acre…. it’s as if our area is becoming heavily tropical…

So today I spend packing up my crafts… my hands and arms are giving me trouble and its more important that I be able to maintain my home and be able to type…Planning to go with Dragon Pro when we get moved and I have a quiet room to work in… for now… it’s prepare for the work on the house, be ready for company that wants to come to Hawaii before we move and overall just busy… just a little slower than before… getting older, never fun…okay maybe we are having fun… but definitely slower….

No depression to speak of… no bad moods or mood swings… no anger or aggression… got to give it to the text books on PTSD… once you do face your nightmares and own them, it’s a peace that I haven’t felt since I was a child, long before the abuse started….

I will take it… Margie doesn’t haunt me anymore… she seems to be at peace with the progress and the revelations… facing the truth about the birth family was the smartest thing I ever did… I always told them… when it came to mother I always told them… “I know a different woman”… I know the true person called mother… she could never hide her sickness from me… that is why she told me to butt out… she didn’t want anyone else to know the true person she is… I have a feeling, if she does get dementia… all bets are off and the true woman will come out… that is a performance I don’t need to see… I saw it in its original form… 

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Author: maggi9454

Margie was born into a typical christian military family... Her story is anything but typical... Domestic violence, rape, attempted murder and all done while my dad served in the U. S. Air Force and they buried the truth... then my own children impacted by Air Force cover up while I am active duty.... Rape, Attempted murder, domestic violence and discrimination in the name of the United States Government... and it is still happening as I write... just look at Trump, Kavanaugh and Thomas.... Circle of Silence is no more....