Well this sucks…

I love the “Big Bang” tv show and we enjoy Big Brother and American Ninja… but we don’t like it when more than one accuser comes forward about sexual harassment and because its going to cost CBS lots of money to buy him off, he gets to stay in his job and his accusers get to relive every second of the sexual assault or harassment…

Innocent till proven guilty is Americas motto… as long as you are white skin… The double standards of our society is so typical of an arrogant nation who does not remember what it is like to have war on our soil… Walk around Tripler hospital on Oahu and look at the machine gun fire still visible in the exterior walls of the military hospital to this day… or go to Pearl Harbor and look down at the ship that has the human remains of Americans….

I used to be Republican and then I grew up and realized they corrupted the party just like the christians corrupted religion… so what do you do… bury your head in the sand, turn the tv off, disconnect from the real world and just live in your little corner???

Sadly when we do that, people like Hitler rise up and snatch the opportunity to spread their lies and destroy countries from with-in… much like what Trump is doing under the instruction of Putin or the dude is just bat shit crazy… your call… I go for Putin… but bat shit might fit too….

So, until CBS gets rid of the man accused of sexual assault and harassment… we are going to be watching more Natgeo and Sci and things along that line… I don’t have to have the label christian to do what is right… I just have to believe in my ethics… You believe what you want, that is your right…

Another day in paradise… ash fall at the crater makes for a sky filled with clouds, gas and ash… Trade winds are back today, so hopefully we all get a break from nature…

I said I don’t have any depression… I am assuming I don’t… I do my chores and other activities, and I am not weepy or anything… and sleep… well you live with coqui frogs on your property and see how often you get woke up… sleep is better than it used to be… now its wake up cause it’s so humid and the sheets are sticking to ya… but hey, its Hawaii… I’ll take it… so I have to say, no depression….it is a weird sensation, but yep, no depression….

As for the dreams, its more of watching a movie in slow motion, showing me my childhood… there are still some areas I can’t see and that is what the hypnosis will be for when we get home in 2020… to see if I made memories of any of the assaults or attacks or it may just be gaps in memory I might still have that are repressed… Can’t disclose all, some are too curious about what I remember, got to have some for the book…

So no anger, aggression, depression, mood swings…. nothing… just living and breathing and already fretting over our next move… an ya know something, I don’t miss the PTSD… this is a peace I have been searching for since I was a little child…

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I Remember…..

 

Author: maggi9454

Margie was born into a typical christian military family... Her story is anything but typical... Domestic violence, rape, attempted murder and all done while my dad served in the U. S. Air Force and they buried the truth... then my own children impacted by Air Force cover up while I am active duty.... Rape, Attempted murder, domestic violence and discrimination in the name of the United States Government... and it is still happening as I write... just look at Trump, Kavanaugh and Thomas.... Circle of Silence is no more....