Good things happen to bad people…

I have always known that my mother had zero respect for me or my accomplishments… I also know for a fact she trash’s all her kids… and I mean all of them… so nurturing isn’t it…

My hubby and I get the biggest kick out of being called the black sheep of the family, just because we do NOT BELIEVE in their man-made god… oh well, you can’t please everyone… but you can please yourself…..

I have watched through these same eyes for 64 years now… with the first memories being formed before the age of 2… I have lots of data stored away in my little gray cells…

One thing that I always kept coming back to Karma… though I have no religious beliefs of any kind.. I believe in myself and rely on myself… but Karma.. that is one subject that I have watched play out for the last 5 decades…

Those who stole from me, including my brother… do not have the best of lives… those that raped my child, may be educated… but happiness will never be a part of their make up… those that assaulted, lied and raped me… the ones I remember by name… are not living… dying from cancers and other diseases… Those who cheated me as contractors… we know one of the properties burned down and no one help put it out and the other contractor died shortly after doing the job… Karma it does exist even if only in my mind… just like your religion…. we can justify any thought… but can you prove it… that is where god becomes the almighty myth…

Long story short… as I incorporate Margie into my daily existence… her quirky sense of humor is coming forward and so far hubby has spewed his food more than once by laughing…

I like me… I like that Margie is a part of me… I like that I never grew up, nor do I plan to… I roller skated with my grandkids in a long skirt.. spent more time on the floor looking at the ceiling… and hurt for weeks… but so worth it….

My life is being turned upside down again and this time I am so ready for the next adventure that is coming my way sooner than planned… we are so excited and itching to start packing… Something can always happen to affect those plans… But I have hope that one journey I have been on since 2008 and the implant of a trans-mesh device, changed my life permanently…. I had a good surgeon here, who just graduated me from the final surgery of repairs… I hope… 

Our lava flow has disappeared… the caldera has been collapsing in on itself for 3 months now… Where did the lava go… no answer for that yet… it may be taking a break, it may be refilling so it can start pumping again or anything could happen… that’s the journey of living on a live volcano… not for the faint of heart…. I miss the glow at night… I could get up at any time during the night and see my whole property because of the light reflecting off the lava clouds… We are seeing more wildlife on our property and some birds I have never seen before… some of their songs are so beautiful and haunting… like they are crying for what they lost…

TimesUp #MeToo

I Remember…..

Author: maggi9454

Margie was born into a typical christian military family... Her story is anything but typical... Domestic violence, rape, attempted murder and all done while my dad served in the U. S. Air Force and they buried the truth... then my own children impacted by Air Force cover up while I am active duty.... Rape, Attempted murder, domestic violence and discrimination in the name of the United States Government... and it is still happening as I write... just look at Trump, Kavanaugh and Thomas.... Circle of Silence is no more....