Autonomic Neuropathy…

I can sit here and say IF ONLY a million times and it won’t change the outcome of my life… and this is one of those times I want to say what if…..

I have 2 forms of neuropathy and this is one of them… and if you read about it and see how much it impacts the internal organs, you’ll get the idea of why I didn’t ever want to have children… so if I hadn’t gotten pregnant by accident… I wouldn’t have had kids… why??? Because almost every day feels like I am pregnant and not a good pregnancy either…

When I said the Air Force got the diagnosis wrong… they did… 100% wrong… can I blame them… I can to some extent… I wasn’t listened too… but then I didn’t know about the TBI or the assaults or the PTSD… that knowledge would come many years later….

All this went down in 1978 at Vance AFB by the flight surgeons at our little clinic… I know one of them tried to figure it out… and by the time he was getting close, according to my records the rape of my child happen and my career was over 2 years later and no medical discharge… Image before people… much like Trump…

Its been a tough day, but a lesson too… as with the incident that was like a seizure… this incident started off with a trigger in the brain and yes I know before hand things will happen… the doctor said some of us are like that… we know in advance when our body is going to cheat on us… and when they do… lets just say… I don’t stray far from my special room… As I think about the brain trigger, I think back through the years… I remember a ex-husband knocked on the door to check on me too, that was at Yokota AFB housing on Japan… and I remember many more times it happened and I always questioned the weirdness of knowing in advance I was going to be miserable…. Hubby knocked on that door today…

Not much comfort for anyone who lives with this kind of neuropathy… so yea I wish I had known… it explains why my body has betrayed me since 1978… Autonomic Neuropathy… only took 40 years to get an answer from government contract doctors… only 40…. but….. I finally got my answer this year… just before my birthday… 

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Author: maggi9454

Domestic violence, rape and assault are not new in America or the world... but it is accepted in the highest offices of our government in America... The catholic church, in congress and the white house... you can use and abuse people as long as you can make everyone believe the words coming out of your mouth.... My body shows the evidence of domestic violence and Air Force cover up... I am just one among millions whose government was complicit in rape and domestic violence... Until women step up and vote with their voice... Men in power, will protect men in power and do it in the name of your god and country.... Your voice, your vote...