Autonomic Neuropathy…

I can sit here and say IF ONLY a million times and it won’t change the outcome of my life… and this is one of those times I want to say what if…..

I have 2 forms of neuropathy and this is one of them… and if you read about it and see how much it impacts the internal organs, you’ll get the idea of why I didn’t ever want to have children… so if I hadn’t gotten pregnant by accident… I wouldn’t have had kids… why??? Because almost every day feels like I am pregnant and not a good pregnancy either…

When I said the Air Force got the diagnosis wrong… they did… 100% wrong… can I blame them… I can to some extent… I wasn’t listened too… but then I didn’t know about the TBI or the assaults or the PTSD… that knowledge would come many years later….

All this went down in 1978 at Vance AFB by the flight surgeons at our little clinic… I know one of them tried to figure it out… and by the time he was getting close, according to my records the rape of my child happen and my career was over 2 years later and no medical discharge… Image before people… much like Trump…

Its been a tough day, but a lesson too… as with the incident that was like a seizure… this incident started off with a trigger in the brain and yes I know before hand things will happen… the doctor said some of us are like that… we know in advance when our body is going to cheat on us… and when they do… lets just say… I don’t stray far from my special room… As I think about the brain trigger, I think back through the years… I remember a ex-husband knocked on the door to check on me too, that was at Yokota AFB housing on Japan… and I remember many more times it happened and I always questioned the weirdness of knowing in advance I was going to be miserable…. Hubby knocked on that door today…

Not much comfort for anyone who lives with this kind of neuropathy… so yea I wish I had known… it explains why my body has betrayed me since 1978… Autonomic Neuropathy… only took 40 years to get an answer from government contract doctors… only 40…. but….. I finally got my answer this year… just before my birthday… 

Times Up #MeToo

I Remember….

Author: maggi9454

My earliest memory is before the age of 2... by the time I was 13, I had no childhood memories... No holidays, no birthdays... On 11/5/17 a shooter in Texas changed all that... It triggered my memories from my 13th year... The Air Force covered it up an it happened in Big Springs, Texas 1967... Domestic violence, PTSD, TBI and I too served in the Air Force 10 years later... This is my story to remember what was stolen...

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