Depression & Neuropathy….

When I was told I had clinical depression and no one knew why I was depressed… wonder why red flags didn’t go off??? Again VA doctor, psychological testing, yada, yada, yada…. a few years before the last test…

What I am learning about neuropathy is you can have depression because of it… Ya know the shrink at El Paso VA, who did my Eval in 11, stated in my file that I had PTSD associated with my illness… though what illness he didn’t say… I have been told I have Fibromyalgia by a RA doctor… I was told by a GI doctor that I had Gerd and Irritable Bowl Syndrome… I was told by a urologist I had IC (interstitial cystitis) and recently I was told I have this weird Tachycardia issue… So I wonder what illness he was referring too… get my drift… The doctor was close… He was right about the PTSD and depression, but not the illness… I don’t have the ones above, I have Autonomic Neuropathy and have had it since the beating at the age of 6… explains why I was so thin… it still happens to this day… got down to 114 pounds in 98 and I was only 44 yrs old… nice weight, but I looked like Olive Oil…

Back to the depression… I used to be so optimistic, ya know glass half empty or half full, however that analogy goes… I think that is what has help me make it through the last 9 months since waking up… My attitude started changing because I was getting my answers… and the answers I couldn’t get, I am comfortable in waiting for them… No anxiety, no depression or fear that things will go back to the way they were… Nope just plodding along, step by step… evaluating the memories as they present themselves…

Now when tears come to my eyes it’s because of anything else but not the past… It’s just life… living it, feeling it, enjoying it…

Depression —–1000         Maggi ++++1,000,000,000 and going strong…

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Author: maggi9454

Domestic violence, rape and assault are not new in America or the world... but it is accepted in the highest offices of our government in America... The catholic church, in congress and the white house... you can use and abuse people as long as you can make everyone believe the words coming out of your mouth.... My body shows the evidence of domestic violence and Air Force cover up... I am just one among millions whose government was complicit in rape and domestic violence... Until women step up and vote with their voice... Men in power, will protect men in power and do it in the name of your god and country.... Your voice, your vote...