Magic Carpet Ride…

It can be psychedelic or lets view it from this angle its a kalidascope of fractured colors as if I was looking through a prism… It goes with the headaches from the TBI’s… and since I have headaches in 3 places, we are reasonably sure that I had at least 3 TBI’s… and because we have the diagnosis of the neuropathie’s… more than one… this is a typical also…. Kind of makes a little sense why the military doctors get it so wrong and why vets give up…..  The doctors don’t get it, if they don’t get it, how can they help us… by text book??? Obviously that isn’t working or we wouldn’t have so many homeless, drug addicted veterans on the streets….

One shrink I saw at the Little Rock VA said point blank, “You don’t trust anyone, do you”… my reply… Why should I … Trust is earned not given… So no I don’t trust you… Never saw the dumb ass again… These docs are so text book and forget about the humans and then you got the counselors that are religious, which in my book, screws people up even more with false rhetoric about an invisible god… I mean really give me a break…

The headaches that go with my TBI’s have been with me for as long as I can remember… They have always been in the same place, something my hubby can attest to, by 24 years of my bitching about the headaches….

Sometimes those headaches are a warning of something to come… It could just be a flash in the pan type of incident or it can last over 24 hours… Which the last one lasted 26 hours… and took me 4 days to recover… You have to be aware and connect the dots on the headaches and seizure type episodes… I still think the doc is off on this one… but I don’t have the education she does and I have to trust someone… Yet a pattern is obviously there, even If I don’t want to recognize it…

There have been 2 incidents in the last few weeks and the doc is trying to get my EEG approved… VA does not move fast for anyone unless you are connected to the white house… Fact, not fiction… So I wait and hope I don’t have anymore incidents… But now hubby knows what to do to help me if I need it… just part of domestic violence 46 years later… Its part of our lives and always will be… I have no other choice… I wasn’t given one… Most victims aren’t…

TimesUp #MeToo

I Remember….

Author: maggi9454

Domestic violence, rape and assault are not new in America or the world... but it is accepted in the highest offices of our government in America... The catholic church, in congress and the white house... you can use and abuse people as long as you can make everyone believe the words coming out of your mouth.... My body shows the evidence of domestic violence and Air Force cover up... I am just one among millions whose government was complicit in rape and domestic violence... Until women step up and vote with their voice... Men in power, will protect men in power and do it in the name of your god and country.... Your voice, your vote...