Crashing of Waves bring memories…

Never know what will trigger memories… learned that on Nov 7, 2017 when Big Springs, Texas came back in all its ugly glory….

With the hurricane getting closer, the cliffs and the waves crashing against them, just a mile down the road are echoing across our little part of paradise…

With every crash of the wave I felt a blow to my body… I have no clue why this one time it happened that way, do not understand the connection between the waves crashing and feeling the blows of someone beating on me… I just know it took my breath away, the memory of the assault by a parent….

It brought to mind a picture of a sibling who is about 6 yrs younger than me… the child was about 3 or 4 and another sibling had just been born… the eyes that looked back at me struck a chord, they looked like my eyes after a severe beating…

The memory is disjointed and not connected to much yet, though I know from past experience I am in for some interesting dreaming as this memory takes on a life so that it will never be forgotten… So it can be shared and just maybe the right person will read this and get help…

As the dark memories surface and I see more of my siblings in them… the more I am convinced, that I am not the only one with repressed memories… 7 children lived in that household… it is very possible that a couple of my siblings suffer trauma so great, they repressed the memory… does explain the life choices they made… they are fighting against themselves and nothing I say or do will help them….

To fix this kind of trauma, you have to be aware… you have to face the past… you have to face the truth… Hope has and always will be part of my make up… I have hope…

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I Remember….

Author: Adorable Spite

Domestic violence is an old song, sung thru the ages like a hymn and purported to be the way christians live their lives... full of deceit, hate, bigotry and most of all fear... It is that fear that cost me my virginity, my soul and most of all my humanity... I had to fight to keep the christians hands off my soul, but they stole from my body and so did the U. S. Air Force... Rape and attempted murder... but image was more important... Vance AFB and Webb AFB... #WhyIDidntTell #MeToo TimesUP, Circle of Silence is no more....