They just keep coming, Memories…

Honestly can not figure out what the trigger is, or is there even a trigger at all and it’s just my mind relaxing its hold on the past… The brain, the most powerful, complex computer on the earth… and you are the pilot… sometimes… Not always with TBI’s… that’s when Jekyll and Hyde come out…

A memory from my time in the military just kicked my brain into gear about another memory concerning my two siblings that are close in age to me… the ones that would remember what went on in that house…

One I hadn’t seen for decades, in fact, I think the last time I saw the person was in Big Springs, Texas… but when the sibling showed up in Washington, when we were staying in our motor home on the west side… It was not what I expected… In fact, it was much like the memory from the military… The person behaved more out of guilt than friendship or sibling….  

As for the other sibling… most of those memories are affected by beatings that were either the result of that sibling or that sibling instigated the beating, because they didn’t get their way… a friend who knows this sibling agrees with my analysis of how this sibling was treated 360 degrees different from the way I was treated… so I doubt seriously that my memory is wrong, when you have a back up…

Regardless… the affection these 2 siblings think we have, was never real and was based on what ever stories they generated or the mother generated… but we never had a relationship of any kind… In fact mother made sure of that after the TV interview…

When people manipulate other people, the center will not hold… as the nation is finding out about Trump… could see that con decades ago for what he was… Mafia… from Russia… but when people want to believe without proof… there is nothing anyone, including me can do about that… why do you think I came up with this saying so very long ago….

You Can’t Fix Stupid, Stupid Has To Want To Fix It Self…. and so far with Trump as president… I give up…

My family will stay on the outside looking in… the poison from my parents is to ingrained in them and they are oblivious to the truth of the world or life in general… Religion is not a religion, when it tells you to discard your family because your god is real and the family is invisible….

I remember that every time I bleed… I am invisible to my family, because they are mentally ill… and believe in a god you can not touch, hear, see, smell, taste or see bleed…

Humans have walked this planet for over 300,000 years… your god showed up yesterday and we have been at war ever since… some god…

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I Remember….

Author: Adorable Spite

Domestic violence is an old song, sung thru the ages like a hymn and purported to be the way christians live their lives... full of deceit, hate, bigotry and most of all fear... It is that fear that cost me my virginity, my soul and most of all my humanity... I had to fight to keep the christians hands off my soul, but they stole from my body and so did the U. S. Air Force... Rape and attempted murder... but image was more important... Vance AFB and Webb AFB... #WhyIDidntTell #MeToo TimesUP, Circle of Silence is no more....