Hurricane Fatigue…

Ya know, I be just a bit tired… last night it rained so hard, we could not hear the movie we were watching and I had the stereo up loud… then the thunder started and the dogs freaked… so we closed up turned on the AC and went to bed… nearly froze…

As the day starts, the radar shows that we are going to get even more rain… some parts of our area saw over 40 inches of rain and the flooding in the Hilo area near the bay, was just, wow… the river was massive and rainbow falls looked more like niagra falls…you could not see the water entry into the pond below…and the sound was deafening…

We are expecting more rain and it will continue until sometime next week… not much anyone can do about it but start quacking like ducks… Some areas of the island have soil, and that makes the run off from this tropical storm more dangerous as we have seen with the land slides over the last 24 hours…

Us, we sit on top of about 4 feet of stacked lava rock, so the rain just flows into the ground and we see no build up… we have been establishing soil since we moved here… not enough there yet to be an issue with this kind of rain…and probably will never be… I know what is under us, I watched them prepare the acre next to us… lots of rock…

Yesterday was an over flow of memories from my childhood… think hubby was tired of me talking about what I remembered… So am I frankly….

There is anger still there and I doubt that anger will ever go away… the crimes my parents and their brothers and sisters committed, will go un-punished by us… life will have to do the job… some died horrible deaths because of cancer or agent orange… some died young instead of seeing their grandchildren grow up and some live a life of denial, not part of the lives they brought into this world, but on the outside looking in and wondering what they did wrong, as they were never held accountable… much like the GOP and Trump… So it will continue…

Can I or will I come to terms with what was done all in the name of christianity… Ya know, you can’t fix stupid, it has to want to fix itself… It’s their lives… they just won’t be a part of mine… they chose god over me… that’s their problem not mine… they have not participated in my life in over 4 decades why should that change now… because they see the light… give me a “F” break…. mental illness 101… educate, never take anything as gospel… it will always make an ass out of you… Pope and continued crimes against people come to mind… Enablers will pay… you just have to be patient… 

So no I will never quit being angry… I will always fight for truth and freedom of speech and I will never have anything to do with the last surviving parent… she is not worth my time and she does not deserve anything from this person… she lost that right when she hit a baby out of frustration instead of being an adult and continued that abuse for 62 years… I will pass… Once I caught her lying it was just a matter of time, before I exposed her… That has been done in my way… and more will come about this story… Time is on my side, not hers…. Then all will be exposed… Try and stop me then bitch… gee know who am I calling bitch??? You had to read the blog to know that answer…. Most of all you had to understand the story being told… and the message that is in it…

TimesUp #MeToo

I Remember…

 

Author: Adorable Spite

Domestic violence is an old song, sung thru the ages like a hymn and purported to be the way christians live their lives... full of deceit, hate, bigotry and most of all fear... It is that fear that cost me my virginity, my soul and most of all my humanity... I had to fight to keep the christians hands off my soul, but they stole from my body and so did the U. S. Air Force... Rape and attempted murder... but image was more important... Vance AFB and Webb AFB... #WhyIDidntTell #MeToo TimesUP, Circle of Silence is no more....