All quiet, for now…

As we clean up from hurricane Lane, every movement reminds me of how lousy I feel again… Something I have walked with since I was a little girl… the nausea is worse than being pregnant… the sudden disconnect to being seated and all of a sudden over whelming dizzy feeling… and the weight loss is happening fast, but not like it did before, its more controlled, since I am aware of what is happening… Awareness so important when dealing with TBI and PTSD along with illness…

Your frustration will mount, you may want to lash out, I know I did and didn’t care of the consequences… that came and bite me in the ass… more than once… but I learned…

That is what it is all about… growing and learning… never stopping and accepting just because some one said it was so… no that is the true form of insanity, when you quit questioning and believe based on blind faith…. Millions have died because of that blind faith….

I smoked a bowl and my stomach still wants me over the throne… It’s a constant struggle when a flare up is on going… but its more tolerable now that I have my answers… it’s not haunting or scary or fear of the unknown… I have my answers about my injuries and illness…. Domestic violence… in the name of christians god… or the people are just flat out bat shit crazy… You can judge… I give up…

Another tropical storm is off our east coast and turning into a hurricane…

We are still drying out our storage sheds, but we think if we duct tape the doors and windows on them, we shouldn’t have any more water encroachment… We hope… You know what I always say… Hope springs eternal… the one word on this planet that can not lie to you or be twisted… Hope….

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I Remember…..

Author: Adorable Spite

Domestic violence is an old song, sung thru the ages like a hymn and purported to be the way christians live their lives... full of deceit, hate, bigotry and most of all fear... It is that fear that cost me my virginity, my soul and most of all my humanity... I had to fight to keep the christians hands off my soul, but they stole from my body and so did the U. S. Air Force... Rape and attempted murder... but image was more important... Vance AFB and Webb AFB... #WhyIDidntTell #MeToo TimesUP, Circle of Silence is no more....