It does really stink that I have health issues only because of domestic violence… I think that is my biggest hurdle to get over my anger… None of my health issues are related to anything or any choice I made in my 64 years on this planet… nope they be a gift from the people I call mother, father and brother and sister… only people on this planet, that went out of their way to inflict harm on a child who refused to buy into their bull shit fake man-made god… You really can’t fix stupid….
When hubby got sick 13 to 14 years ago, I knew life would never be the same… It was one of the factors motivating me to get answers about my own life and all that was missing… Margie… so I could help and not be a burden….
I am not real sympathetic to hubby only because, I have never known a day without pain… ever……….
So for me to be compassionate it takes communication and you know what… the man is finally talking, it only took 24 years of marriage, but he’s finally expressing himself about his health, or maybe I am just listening… have to look at if from all angles….
The med the RA doctor had him try, turned hubby into a real asshole and this dude is about as mellow as you get… that’s why we have been married so long… he’s a teddy bear…. and last night, after checking his pulse throughout the afternoon, the med finally wore off and his heart rate returned back to what is normal for him… he is in heart failure….
This morning his attitude is one of acceptance and willingness to try the biologic the RA doctor recommended… It’s an ugly disease this RA….
Yet as I always tell my hubby, it’s about what you really want out of life… quantity or quality… he’s going for quality of life… the quantity… well that’s up to how long he desires to live… the brain the most powerful computer on the planet… because it runs the most complex organism on the planet…. YOU….
Life will ALWAYS be about CHOICE….