Gremlins won’t leave me alone…

Every time I seriously consider quitting this writing and go back to my quiet little life and existence… some damn gremlin from the past, present and soon to be future… okay maybe not the future, but you get where I am going…?

For those who don’t know why I am writing… well it’s not just because of Margies song… With Margie, I would have been perfectly happy with my little life and my little world, small and exclusive, IF, people would have left me alone… i.e…. mother, sibling, friend, ex-spouse… I would have never started this blog… 

I would have been serenely content sharing my story with my husband and my daughter… my other children have better things to do… yet just those two people would have been enough for me to start the healing process and the journey to learn Margies song….

But, that one little word that I really do not appreciate enough… but, people wanted me in their world on their terms and my feelings, my life, my wounds, my heart, my soul had no value to them… only my brains…. made me shake my head on that one in real-time… wow… how painful to the soul and heart that should be… but… it’s not and why is that…

To impact my life, you have to be a part of my life… you have to want to be in the moment, you have to want to accept me as I am, you have to accept you can not nor will you ever be trusted in my life…. because you already proved you can’t be… trusted…. you went out of your way to cause pain… your actions were deliberate… you have to live with that…

Once you start a life of lies, disrespectful behavior with no accountability for your actions… it will always crush you in the end… always…

Yes, I would have been content to live my life in a quiet corner of the world… but people would not leave me alone…. even when I asked them too…. and they chose to disrespect and abuse any kind of relationship we ever had… they destroyed it in a Single Moment In Time… That one Random moment will haunt them the rest of their days… and every time they look into my eyes…. 

IF, they have the courage….

TimesUp #MeToo

I Remember… Margie…

Author: maggi9454

Domestic violence, rape and assault are not new in America or the world... but it is accepted in the highest offices of our government in America... The catholic church, in congress and the white house... you can use and abuse people as long as you can make everyone believe the words coming out of your mouth.... My body shows the evidence of domestic violence and Air Force cover up... I am just one among millions whose government was complicit in rape and domestic violence... Until women step up and vote with their voice... Men in power, will protect men in power and do it in the name of your god and country.... Your voice, your vote...