Gremlins won’t leave me alone…

Every time I seriously consider quitting this writing and go back to my quiet little life and existence… some damn gremlin from the past, present and soon to be future… okay maybe not the future, but you get where I am going…?

For those who don’t know why I am writing… well it’s not just because of Margies song… With Margie, I would have been perfectly happy with my little life and my little world, small and exclusive, IF, people would have left me alone… i.e…. mother, sibling, friend, ex-spouse… I would have never started this blog… 

I would have been serenely content sharing my story with my husband and my daughter… my other children have better things to do… yet just those two people would have been enough for me to start the healing process and the journey to learn Margies song….

But, that one little word that I really do not appreciate enough… but, people wanted me in their world on their terms and my feelings, my life, my wounds, my heart, my soul had no value to them… only my brains…. made me shake my head on that one in real-time… wow… how painful to the soul and heart that should be… but… it’s not and why is that…

To impact my life, you have to be a part of my life… you have to want to be in the moment, you have to want to accept me as I am, you have to accept you can not nor will you ever be trusted in my life…. because you already proved you can’t be… trusted…. you went out of your way to cause pain… your actions were deliberate… you have to live with that…

Once you start a life of lies, disrespectful behavior with no accountability for your actions… it will always crush you in the end… always…

Yes, I would have been content to live my life in a quiet corner of the world… but people would not leave me alone…. even when I asked them too…. and they chose to disrespect and abuse any kind of relationship we ever had… they destroyed it in a Single Moment In Time… That one Random moment will haunt them the rest of their days… and every time they look into my eyes…. 

IF, they have the courage….

TimesUp #MeToo

I Remember… Margie…

Author: Adorable Spite

Domestic violence is an old song, sung thru the ages like a hymn and purported to be the way christians live their lives... full of deceit, hate, bigotry and most of all fear... It is that fear that cost me my virginity, my soul and most of all my humanity... I had to fight to keep the christians hands off my soul, but they stole from my body and so did the U. S. Air Force... Rape and attempted murder... but image was more important... Vance AFB and Webb AFB... #WhyIDidntTell #MeToo TimesUP, Circle of Silence is no more....