When you feel others pain….

Empathy, something I have too much of… I can not or is it I will not tolerate deliberate cruelty, be it to human or animal… and no I am not vegetarian… come on, I do have Neanderthal in my DNA… hello…. ya know human, dna and the fact that we share our dna with a host of life on this planet… so I am going to go off track and just say for those who do not eat meat… I came from T-rex… I love my steak… enough said…

Now back to the reason for this write… Empathy is not something I like and it hurts more than it helps in life… made it a real bitch when I worked in the hospital at St. Mary’s, In Enid… one of my many 2nd jobs outside my military one…. I saw too much suffering working on the ward I was assigned… I realize that my empathy is one of my many handicaps, it is what allowed me to have a romantic idea about my sister…

I wish I knew what happened… I really do… at one time we were close, but after the boob incident, things were never the same… ever… that was 58 years ago about this time of year…. it all changed because of the choices the people involved with that moment in time chose… a flash of that memory travels before my eyes as I type… wow, the brain is one fun toy…

I tried the path my family took and I couldn’t get off of it fast enough… hate, prejudice, bigotry, corruption, lying, greed, envy and most of all a corrupt religion that became a cult so very long ago, when the teachings became corrupted by man…

No, my choices I realize will cause pain… not like the pain that was given to me out of deliberate malice and hate… no, my choices are about me and only me for once in my life… and because of that, I won’t compromise any more just to be a part of other people’s worlds… just like their religion, I too have values, ethics and morales… only difference… I live mine… not hide behind them… but live it for the whole world to see…

Very few ground rules to be a part of my world… honesty is first and foremost, empathy is the other… along with a healthy dose of kindness… I know so few people who really have those qualities… it is easier to hide behind our 4 walls and the internet, than it is to be human…. no other label… just human… 

I get that my writing will cause pain… I can only say, life comes full circle, what you give out, is what you will get back… My course is not deliberate…it was laid out for many decades ago when an enraged adult hit a baby with an old fashion hair brush…. and refused to tell the truth about decades of abuse… this is a story of survival… As with being a victim in pain… a survivor too will experience pain when those who welded the power of abuse refuse to own their actions….

TimesUp #MeToo

I Remember…. Margie….

Author: maggi9454

Domestic violence, rape and assault are not new in America or the world... but it is accepted in the highest offices of our government in America... The catholic church, in congress and the white house... you can use and abuse people as long as you can make everyone believe the words coming out of your mouth.... My body shows the evidence of domestic violence and Air Force cover up... I am just one among millions whose government was complicit in rape and domestic violence... Until women step up and vote with their voice... Men in power, will protect men in power and do it in the name of your god and country.... Your voice, your vote...