Symptoms and Reality…

Headaches… I know I have gone through sessions before where I had lots of headaches and always in the same place in the brain and always the same symptoms, except the symptoms are getting worse….

What I deal with, is the kaleidoscope aura that will circle my vision… my vision is becoming more blurred and I know this is part of the Autonomic part of my neuropathy, with the ankylosis spondylitis in my neck from the whip-lash of the beatings and being hit upside the head by both parents and being dropped from a top bunk repeatedly…

Yep I live with headaches not of my making… you have no idea how much I wanted to give back what was given to me… instead I tried kindness and care and love and you see what I ended up with… no one has been honest yet, in fact some of my relatives are in hiding, cause they be so afraid of what I remember… self-centered to the end… the story is about Margie after all…

I am figuring it out though… doing more physical therapy exercises that help take pressure off the nerves that are generating the headaches… struggling with posture is the hardest… the muscles and nerves do not communicate with each other so it takes a conscious effort to maintain body alignment so I don’t trigger the headaches and vision issues… gets to be a little out of focus when I give in to the decaying body…

Not much you can do with what life gives you sometimes… I do make the best of it and it is worth the work and effort… I sleep better… my weight has dropped due to normal issues and not the neuropathy and the depression, again, it’s a thing of the past… gone completely… no, I will once in a while slip into my old night-shirt depression for a few moments then I take my foot out of my ass and get on with my day…. I am aware it tries to enter, but I have the key…

I know that my vision is at risk and will have to have surgery someday… until then I let Mike do the driving…. an my typing is an issue, but I am doing exercises for my left arm so that I can continue to use my hands…. so many little things I have learned to improve my quality of life… quantity, well that’s up to how long my body says I will be around….I am shooting for 100….

TimesUp #MeToo

I Remember…. Margie…

 

Author: maggi9454

Domestic violence, rape and assault are not new in America or the world... but it is accepted in the highest offices of our government in America... The catholic church, in congress and the white house... you can use and abuse people as long as you can make everyone believe the words coming out of your mouth.... My body shows the evidence of domestic violence and Air Force cover up... I am just one among millions whose government was complicit in rape and domestic violence... Until women step up and vote with their voice... Men in power, will protect men in power and do it in the name of your god and country.... Your voice, your vote...