Fighting for Life…

The morning started off with rain, clouds and freezing, because the AC was on all night, paint needs dry temps to dry… so I opened up and looked out the window and with my vision, I wasn’t sure what I was seeing…so I dropped my toothbrush and ran out the door and there it was a young cat, maybe 2 years old and struggling to hold its head up and the dogs charged the fence and the cats behavior told me immediately, poison… D-con or something worse…

We contacted the Humane Society and they were here within 30 mins, we live a ways out-of-town… and one look at the animal and the lady agreed, neurological, probably poison… it was heart breaking to see the animal suffer so, just because humans could not take the time to set traps, instead they take the easy out and use posion…

Never fun to watch any life leave any living being…. seen enough death to last me several lifetimes…. the animal will likely be put down… its behavior after being caged, it was unable to right itself….

Then my phone just rang as I am typing this… the doctor wants to see me to discuss the EEG results… now that could be bad news or it could be good news… since I am having vision issues… I am going to go with bad news… now I wait for the next couple of weeks to see what all this excitement is about…

After all this time… I have just learned to go with the flow…its not like I was given a choice about being beaten for years… my body has been talking from day one… It just took a civilian doctor on an island to listen…

I learned a very long time ago to listen to me, then seek professional help… that way, I know before they do, what is wrong with me… I can do that on just about any subject in medicine except one… the brain and that is one subject that scares the hell out of me…

I got a feeling this is going to be a long couple of weeks before the doctor tells me what all the excitement is about…

As I predicted the neuropathy diagnosis and Mike can verify that one… with the brain this is my thought… I have CTE and there is probably blood clots or scarring on the brain… the knowledge of being self-aware and attuned to what my body has endured and learning all I can… I seriously doubt I have a seizure issue… but again… I learned a long time ago to Never say Never… it just bites you in the ass and frankly my ass is a little sore right now…

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I Remember… Margie…..

FYI there are 10 distinct reasons for abnormal EEG… I had one in 2000 and it was normal… Curious why so excited about this one…

Author: Adorable Spite

Domestic violence is an old song, sung thru the ages like a hymn and purported to be the way christians live their lives... full of deceit, hate, bigotry and most of all fear... It is that fear that cost me my virginity, my soul and most of all my humanity... I had to fight to keep the christians hands off my soul, but they stole from my body and so did the U. S. Air Force... Rape and attempted murder... but image was more important... Vance AFB and Webb AFB... #WhyIDidntTell #MeToo TimesUP, Circle of Silence is no more....