Candy brings memories…

Halloween coming, no kids to give out candy too… so that leaves us no recourse but to go buy hard candy and munch it while we are painting this house and every once in a while I will grab a specific piece of candy like a jaw breaker, or a sugar daddy or bubble gum and a memory will pop into view…

Nothing new, just a reminder of how the good memories are all connected to violent memories… and all it took was for me to be sitting here, playing cards before I relax for the night and a couple of memories that have to do with our time in Alabama and another one of mothers many beatings on me…

I swear I must have pushed every button that woman had, from the time I could tell her no until I told her last year, her reign of terror was over in my life… and the email I got back, said it all… image and protecting her baby boy… who loves her to the tune… well lets just say, its 6 figures… you just can’t fix stupid… I am so proud, he turned out just like daddy…. Check mate boy….. because a man you will never be… to proud of yourself for beating up an old man… spoke volumes of your character… just like mommy…. 

The memory in Alabama was violent… but then so were all of them… but that memory brought forth memory of 2 siblings… and frankly, after seeing those memories… no wonder I have nothing to do with my birth family… 

There are many things I do not do, different genres I stay away from… all because of my mother… that includes, food and candy… it took me decades before I ate strawberry ice cream… trauma at the hand of your own family…. its happening right this minute and someone can hear or see something, yet they turn away or close their eyes and they turn up the volume to drown out the sound….

of another victim of domestic violence….

Not to sure I will buy Halloween candy again, like I did this year… to many unpleasant memories this time… but then again… always looking for triggers to make the memories open up… now if I can just quit eating it….

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I Remember… Margie….

Author: maggi9454

Margie was born into a typical christian military family... Her story is anything but typical... Domestic violence, rape, attempted murder and all done while my dad served in the U. S. Air Force and they buried the truth... then my own children impacted by Air Force cover up while I am active duty.... Rape, Attempted murder, domestic violence and discrimination in the name of the United States Government... and it is still happening as I write... just look at Trump, Kavanaugh and Thomas.... Circle of Silence is no more....

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