Proof… Trump always wants proof….

Proof does you no good when it comes to assault…. if no rape kit done, no witness… you are screwed… learned that lesson in the military…. at least that is what the men in power want us to think….

I was kind of meditating while taping off for the painting we are doing… and it hit me… I had proof of my “sweat issue”….

Sometime in 2000 or there about within a year or two… I bought a nice shirt from a store in Okanogan called Rawsons… they carry nice quality stuff and I liked the shirt….

What has this to do with sweat…. It is the only piece of clothing I have that old… I donate my stuff, before I wear it out… but this was a shirt, that just kept going it is made that well and still looks new…

The shirt is “WHITE”… no sweat stains of any kind…. I know when the last time I wore it was at our Las Cruces property just before my sweat glands kicked in…. I haven’t worn it since, because it has to be ironed, and I usually pack that stuff first…lol… hate ironing…

Anyhow… I showed my husband the shirt and he looked at me like I grew a 2nd head… so let me see if my knowledge is right about what I read concerning brain injury….

We know that I suffered at least 5 head contact injuries… where I was physically hit in the head or the head was used as a hammer against another object…thus the dent in my skull…

Anyhow… what I read one time about the hypothalamus and how if it is injured when you are young… it kind of shuts off or works at a lower ability, until the light is turned back on….

I started sweating at night around 2011 & I went thru menopause back in the late 70’s thanks to the military …. so this is not related to that… 

Do I think this is related to head injury… yep, I do… I remember wearing a hazmat suit in the military and couldn’t figure out why my body was not sweating but my head was… never thought much of it… but I remember, feeling real light-headed after I took off the head-gear….

You see, I do not have a body temperature above 97.6… Even when ill, my fever did not go up like it should… which we found out when we both got pneumonia, because of a COPD inhaler we had both be prescribed… that thing went byebye… but, when the doc saw me in the ER… I barely was running a fever and not sweating, but the doc knew I had pneumonia… Mike got it 2 days later… rough couple weeks then…. man-made drugs are the worse….

My supposition is this… because I found out from my  mother I was missing memory in 2010… that was the beginning of the brain waking up from the trauma it had sustained so many decades ago… the answers I had asked and not knowing what I was searching for… started the brain back into gear… it started waking up in mothers kitchen…when I remembered those 3 attacks…

And the body is responding to it… some of it is good and the rest we all know is bad… a constant struggle to just stand up straight or walk… or watch as an object goes flying across the room, because my brain thought it would be funny… big reason we do not have glass’ in our house…  just plastic…. my hands do what they want once in a while… reason I hate makeup… never know where it will end up on my face….

Every day my body is teaching me what went wrong and how we can fix it to work so that I have some quality of life in my physical form…

My mental form… I think… it will always be a work in progress… I find the cruelty of the human mind when it comes to image and religion, has no limits and we see that daily in the white house… and my family is still in denial…. wow….

I will work daily to understand what I am living with, work to make the best of what I have and strive to get as close as I can to touching some of my dreams…

Not all of us will get to touch our dreams… because….

Of religion….

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I Remember… Margie….

Author: maggi9454

Margie was born into a typical christian military family... Her story is anything but typical... Domestic violence, rape, attempted murder and all done while my dad served in the U. S. Air Force and they buried the truth... then my own children impacted by Air Force cover up while I am active duty.... Rape, Attempted murder, domestic violence and discrimination in the name of the United States Government... and it is still happening as I write... just look at Trump, Kavanaugh and Thomas.... Circle of Silence is no more....