Oh Boy….

Last night anything but fun… we are both worn out and are pushing to get this painting done.. so we can rest, then tear out 500 sq ft of laminate flooring that has to be replaced…. and do all this before the holidays, because the flooring is cheaper during those sales….

So what was so bad about last night as I sit here and my body slumps remembering….

Noise and pain… hubby, when he is exhausted snores more… and boy did he… but, I was ready for lights out too, except for one little problem…

The nerves and muscles in my fore arms were going off in stereo with how un-happy they are over all this activity and add the exercises I am doing to build them up and hope that the nerves and muscles start communicating with each other…nothing is happy with me….

Since I have had surgery, were the nerves had to grow back and recover… I know what I am feeling… not fun either…

Either I am pushing them to hard, and I don’t think I am doing that…  It’s more along the lines of doing fine painting in areas that have to have a steady hand so you don’t paint into another color and that is taking a lot of control between the arms, hands and brain…. and all of them are revolting….

I knew, when I found out that the neuropathy was body wide, I was in for a long road of frustration, pain and difficult times….

Teaching myself to sleep a different way, so that I am not putting pressure on my arms during the night, is going to take a few nights of lost sleep, until the pattern of behavior imprints and becomes a habit… doing this in the hopes that, I never have to have surgery, just so I can use my hands…

It just means, I take more breaks, during this process and hubby has to keep my pace and not his… we are learning to work with our issues… I don’t call them disabilities… because, we find ways to work around any issues that impedes our progress and mobility…. in other words… we refuse to become the couch potatoes so many chose over healthy lifestyles….

All about choice…. day starting and we have a room to finish…

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I Remember… Margie….

Author: maggi9454

Margie was born into a typical christian military family... Her story is anything but typical... Domestic violence, rape, attempted murder and all done while my dad served in the U. S. Air Force and they buried the truth... then my own children impacted by Air Force cover up while I am active duty.... Rape, Attempted murder, domestic violence and discrimination in the name of the United States Government... and it is still happening as I write... just look at Trump, Kavanaugh and Thomas.... Circle of Silence is no more....