Waiting for that shoe drop….

Anticipation… you know what they say about keeping an asshole in suspense………..

That is exactly how this feels… 

Sleep, much better and improving… only got up once last night…

Nightmares… those seem to come about awake or asleep and last night, it was lala land… not the movie either….

Wednesday will be the acid test… how I handle the doctor and her unprofessional behavior… I know what I would have done before… never gone back to see her….

That all changed after Nov 7, 2017… and it has taken almost a year to get to this point in my life, where my emotions are no longer in control…. Maggi is….

Will it always be this way??? Are you for REAL???? Psychic I am not… I have hope, that this pattern of behavior is the new normal…. as long as I have a full tummy… hungry Maggi is a bitchy Maggi… and that is a fact… only took 63 years to figure that mechanism out… Anorexia… was so much a part of my life, at one time…. because of fear….

It is a new day, every day… because Margie flew the cell and is flying free… she will be back… when we start the last phase of this journey… for now, she is enjoying her freedom to do as she pleases… without fear of retaliation of her birth mother…. and family….

It’s different, I will give you that… I talked about a peace I have not felt since I was a very little child…. and its as if I am taking my first steps into my life, as I leave my old life behind me… It will always be a part of me… just not the controlling or influencing part of me… No… that is for Maggi to choose… because of her… we got away from the corrupt life of religion and started living life-like it should be….

Free…..

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I Remember… Margie…..

Author: maggi9454

Margie was born into a typical christian military family... Her story is anything but typical... Domestic violence, rape, attempted murder and all done while my dad served in the U. S. Air Force and they buried the truth... then my own children impacted by Air Force cover up while I am active duty.... Rape, Attempted murder, domestic violence and discrimination in the name of the United States Government... and it is still happening as I write... just look at Trump, Kavanaugh and Thomas.... Circle of Silence is no more....