Memories are vital for life….

It is weird, how every day something pops up and I handle it differently and I approach some things differently…

I think the most annoying thing I do, is start talking in Italian or Japanese or throw in some German and my hubby and dogs look at me as If I grew extra heads… So my thought about the language ability is probably correct… the fact I remember the language after 40 years plus, is surprising to me… we were in Wal-Mart and little Japanese lady wanted something off the top shelf, so I spoke to her in Japanese… surprised her and me… again, another ability that was impacted by PTSD and TBI…

When you don’t have your own back story… you are not sure how to act around the people you know and you usually have a wall between you and strangers, but you act very out going… that is PTSD and TBI for me…

Now I find myself extremely selective about who I let into my world… It used to be open and the door revolving… but after so many decades of abuse… that door has a key… that key… respect my space, leave your religion for your four walls and politics are off the table… we can talk anything else to death…

It’s my world people want into… but I am the only one with the key… and so far… not too many people are respecting the boundaries I have in place for my protection… not theirs….

I have decades of memories of abuse… from spouses, children, grandchildren, friends, strangers and most of all christians in my own birth family and on face book….

I want to make new memories, so that the old memories have less space… but… no one wants to respect my space… today was another example of someone pushing christians god into my world… on face book…

A god that is already proved corrupt, soul-less and human-less…. but their agenda is more important than….My LIFE…. that key to that door, may never be found….

I respect your right to believe in gods… respect my right to keep you at a distance and just possibly forever on the outside looking in…. 

Christians do not respect anything but their own agenda… not country, just their own personal agenda… Now that is insanity at its best….that’s so wrong in America… brings to mind the Salem witch trials… all based on fear and greed… much like what Trump spreads….

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I Remember… Margie….

Author: maggi9454

Margie was born into a typical christian military family... Her story is anything but typical... Domestic violence, rape, attempted murder and all done while my dad served in the U. S. Air Force and they buried the truth... then my own children impacted by Air Force cover up while I am active duty.... Rape, Attempted murder, domestic violence and discrimination in the name of the United States Government... and it is still happening as I write... just look at Trump, Kavanaugh and Thomas.... Circle of Silence is no more....