Line of Resistance, maybe in your Brain…

The battle that goes on in the brain of a PTSD patient is comparable to that of mood disorders… which explains why some of the college educated morons thought that based on a paper test, that is what I had, but they didn’t bother to do an EEG… so goes the way of the Air Force when they want to cover something up… I got you assholes by the balls… thank you gentlemen for leaving a trail of evidence… it’s called medical records and I got them…

When you are not diagnosed correctly, for over 30 years, you either drink yourself to death, drugs or what ever course you think is best… all based on doctors who talked out their ass and not their brains… I am a prime example of how the mental health field got it 100% wrong, but they being adults, they won’t own their incompetence…. naturally….

So when I was told that it was a mood disorder and I asked the shrink can you change your personality…. just those two items, created a small conflict for just a few years in my brain…. then I got a IQ test and tossed the bull shit the Air Force said out the window and I realized they just got away with the cover up concerning the rape and attempted murder of my child on a federal installation…. WOW!!!

Sadly I continued all the meds the Air Force had me on until 1996… so for 13 years I was medicated for something that wasn’t even wrong…. all because the image of Vance AFB was more important than my health or my child’s life…. now that is America in a nut shell… and it’s going on in Washington even as I write…. so nothing new on the horizon for morals and ethics in America… as long as you have the power…. you have the control…. and you say you believe in god…

Once I quit the meds… it took me years to figure out up from down, right from left, and most of all…. it took until 2017, November 7th for me to wake up and realize, I had been walking through life… not living it and I did it all under the guise of a mental health diagnosis that was wrong, it was also bogus… because it was about protecting Vance AFB and the base commander and letting the first sergeant retire… because it was his son that raped my child and tried to murder both of my kids…. but the base reputation was more important than the truth…. now that is christianity in a nut shell… 

I fought a battle inside my brain for decades, because I trusted those who are supposed to be educated and swore and oath to help, not destroy patients…. but the mental health and medical side of the Air Force is about image… not patients… I watched more than one airmen try to commit suicide at Vance… one kid succeeded and the base told the family it was the airmen at blame… when the kid asked to be relieved of duty… he felt something wrong and was ignored… it cost him his life and the Air Force lied about his death… that is just one example of my time at Vance… there are other airmen who attempted suicide after asking for help and got none…

I am lucky… I was born with a brain that was self-aware from the moment I could be cognizant…. because of that… I was always fighting for survival until I got my memories back…. and all the Air Force ever had to do… tell me what happened at Webb AFB when they put my dad in a psych ward for trying to kill me… that was 10 years before I went active duty….

Instead… I had to figure out on my own about the brain injuries and the cover up by my own government… it is nothing new… Seen records myself about the military and what it hides from the public… and people bitch about a flag, that has little to no meaning except through propaganda instead of facts….

But you do not hear from the American people, bitching about the lives that are offered up, just so they can go about every day life… while those in uniform suffer… yet we still serve… because to some us… we are fighting for our freedom and liberty, not only as a world power, but as a people and our government has operated no differently than a communist state…. just doing it under the guise of democracy and religion….

Not the nation I swore and oath too…. but it is the land I love and my forefathers fought for, long before the American Revolution…. It is a continued battle to get honesty out of Washington… and after putting a rapist in the White House and two rapist on the supreme court…. 

WOW…. and they say Americans have values… must mean the ole pocket-book… because, those 3 men serving our country, represent the worse of our country and that is a FACT…

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I Remember… Margie…

Author: maggi9454

Margie was born into a typical christian military family... Her story is anything but typical... Domestic violence, rape, attempted murder and all done while my dad served in the U. S. Air Force and they buried the truth... then my own children impacted by Air Force cover up while I am active duty.... Rape, Attempted murder, domestic violence and discrimination in the name of the United States Government... and it is still happening as I write... just look at Trump, Kavanaugh and Thomas.... Circle of Silence is no more....