Get up this morning, happy to wake up as usual… check face book and of course someone shared a bogus picture about the migrants and this person swears they are christian… guess they missed the class on christian charity… isn’t that sad… you have to be taught to have this kind of humanity… that is what religion does to the soul… sucks it dry and leaves behind nothing but bigotry and fear… you just can not fix stupid… honest, I tried… UNCLE!!!
One year ago, I started talking about the shooter in Texas and what has followed, gets my heart racing even as I sit here and type… and I am still trying to wrap my head around it… but that is not completely true either….
When Don (dad) was dying, little brother asked me why I never came around, without even blinking an eye, I said mom and dad…. we continued to talk into the night while dad lay dying… and he was so proud how he stood up to his dad by beating on him… and I kept telling him and my other siblings… the people you know are not the people I know… meaning mom & dad…
When I faced the Texas assault and found out that I could literally have my mother put in jail… there is no moratorium for 2nd degree assault and that is what it was classified as… attempted murder, and the people who tried mom and dad… the victims… myself, my older half-brother and the children that saw it all… all because mother had to have sex with her old boyfriend in Bonita… so much for the christian faith… do as I say, not as I do is the way most con’s work….
I tried the counseling which was more like being treated like a child instead of an adult with a high IQ… but one statement the nurse made, was all I needed, I left and never went back… because they don’t believe in tattle telling and if you read my blog… you know that does not sit well with me, when you suppress the truth…. but they gave me a hint and I took it… the rest as they say is history… and finally the medical side is doing a brain MRI… which I have been asking for since 2011….. yea VA…. NOT!!!
The chaos that used to be so much a part of my life is gone… the fear triggers, be it words, actions, movies, books, etc…. a little left, but mostly gone…. the nightmares… not like it used to be… more of dream city and wake up knowing it was a dream and not an assault upon my being… the attitudes, the ID, the Ego, the conscience…. all more relaxed and working together and not against each other….
I keep going back to what if my parents had owned their behavior and told me as an adult what happened so I could seek proper care… but that was a big gamble… because if it all came out… dad would have lost his military retirement… and that VA money I got for mom… would never have happened and she would be living on dads SS only…. so for them to come clean, meant they would lose out on MONEY!!!! Now that is christianity….
Anger against religion, not really, as long as those who practice religion realize THEY DO NOT HAVE A RIGHT TO PUSH THEIR RELIGION ON ME OR ANYONE ELSE…. Including children… they should have a right to choose to believe… just because the adults are insane, doesn’t mean you got to make your kids crazy too… an people wonder why addiction is such an issue… Religion is fantasy… Life is reality… they do not mix, when you believe in something you cannot confirm…. the addiction they can confirm… your god they can not….
Excited about the MRI…. looking for the Oregon lab results… I remember a letter from the VA saying they found nothing… but I have read so much, I could have this confused…so hunting today I will be… Spent last night rereading all I needed to confirm, I still do not meet the profile for the life taking illness’… or the disabling ones… not that neuropathy like I got isn’t disabling… thus wanting the physical therapy… hopefully next year… the VA has no money again… Thanks GOP & Trump… as long as Melania gets the best health care… it’s all good…. NOT!!!
Today we find out important info on the IVC filter in Mike, if they have to remove it or what… it is believed that is what caused his silent heart attack and thus triple by-pass… Medicine in America is anything but good… it is mediocre….
Life is always about choice… I choose to continue to grow and keep the religious rhetoric out of my world… want to be a part of my world… leave your religion for your 4 walls and church… they are not welcomed here….
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I Remember… Margie….