SEX……. and TBI….

A subject I have discussed with my husband of 24 years… is SEX… and how not knowing I had a TBI impacted our marriage and almost ended it….

The time is 2010, I am being super bitchy, no sleep and we are back in Arkansas, trying to get our little old house fixed up to sell so we could move… and hubby has enough and just leaves… needless to say, he got a reality check up and I had to decide if I really wanted to stay in the marriage…. This one moment in 24 years is all we ever had problems about…. 7 years later we both find out why I behaved the way I did and why I could have cared less if we ever had SEX…. and he left, cause I was a cranky old woman in the morning…. HELLO…

It always comes back to one issue… KNOWING!!!! I knew that I was missing memory by 2010 after confronting mother…. but I didn’t know I had a TBI yet, until the Psych exam at El Paso VA 2011 for an appeal I have on going… and that is when the puzzle started to slowly make sense… needless to say, I figured out to use magnesium to help me sleep, works like a charm and hubby is happy about that… started it after 2010 and his little drive….

As for sex… with the reputation I got at Vance AFB, you would have thought I was sleeping with every dude that came on the base… and it couldn’t have been further from the truth….

Thanks to the TBI and the fact I had so many brain injuries… the fact that I even look at a man is saying something… not much, I do have taste that have nothing to do with looks…

As for sex… even as a teenager, I could have cared less… don’t get me wrong I experimented… but, I could do without it… I had zero sex drive… and it stayed that way till now… and again, it goes back to injuring the hypothalamus and pituitary gland and we know Texas, Margie suffered a severe injury and she was only 13… just at the age of puberty… explains why I developed so late in life… they beat the crap out of my internal organs and I now live with neuropathy… in other words, my heart can quit any time it wants, because of the damage to my central nervous system inside and outside the organs and flesh… just because 2 adults thought it was okay to beat on their children… Christians… ugh, stupid at its best!!!

I often wonder over the years why I had a lack of interest in sex… took lots of blood tests, had hormones given to me after they took my female organs and nothing mattered or changed how I felt about sex… and dear hubby of 24 years can account for the time we didn’t have any and it was longer than a year at a stretch….

For anyone in my past to even hint I was sex crazed… I have a husband that will be happy to punch your lights out… because you would be slandering me and him… He has lived with this too and you didn’t… you just speculated and spread the gossip you and mom are so famous for… and gave me a reputation I was incapable of earning… even at Vance AFB and that was just men in power being told to kiss my ass, when I turned them down!!!…

Once you start lying it is so hard to quit… and when someone like me comes along and proves every poisonous word you uttered from a “Christian Mouth” was just a story like their bible…. well the rest is history…

Yep and I got judged… boy howdy… are they looking mighty stupid now… hows my life looking now Sgt Billman??? you and the other girls envied so much… How is it looking now that the truth has come out????

You really can’t fix stupid and gossip, like lies, is brain candy for the stupid and bigots…. ie… Trump and his followers…

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I Remember… Margie….