Many faces of PTSD….

With a TBI, in my case, with so much of my youth stolen by TBI’s… you are already trying to figure out who you are, values, ethics, morales…. kick in some puberty that was delayed till I was 16 1/2…. and the Air Force giving me menopause at 25…. I never stood a chance against any type of mental illness, let alone PTSD for something I had no memory of… I found I understood people who are bi-polar (split personality)… I could relate… because I had more than one face I gave the world, including my own….I never saw this….

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This picture personifies when as a person, I quit dressing up, quit wearing make up and withdrew from the world… a little at a time… because I was being hunted by PTSD and its many faces I gave the world…

Wife, Mother, Airman, Friend, Daughter, Grandmother… giving all a different face that was not me… but it was the PTSD…

The mood disorder the Air Force tried to put on me, almost did me under… until I took a IQ test and the brain started fighting back against the many faces of PTSD… Paper test, no EEG… just a paper test and they tried so hard to destroy me… because I knew the truth about the rapes, attempted murder and the cover up…. most involved are now dead…

Sad isn’t it… I couldn’t raise my voice because of people like Trump and christians….. and they are fighting me on the government records… transparency is only good for political fodder… FACT….

I can see as a child when the PTSD started, but it never took away my courage… and that is what bothered mom and dad the most… they could never break me… he is dead and she is wishing I was dead… her life time is coming to an end, and like he, she will be remembered for cruelty and barbaric behavior in the name of a christian god… that never did take my soul….

PTSD has many faces… mine have faded and only I remain…. the journey continues…

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I Remember… Margie…..