PTSD and Trust… do not go together in our world…

PTSD… it has many meanings and symptoms… a very diverse subject that I think the mental health gets wrong more often than they get right… I am a prime example of that… psych test done 1982, for a board discharge… paper test, no EEG, no brain scan of any kind… just ONE psychological test I have taken a half-dozen times… and each one different and the last one in 2011…. PTSD… One doctor, from 1982 to 2011… One doctor got it right… 

Now if that doesn’t tell you the military and VA have no clue how to interpret psychology testing…. well then, I have a bridge in the pacific for sell…it goes no place and starts no place… and that is mental health in the VA and military…it goes no where and it helps no one and veterans end up dead… that is a FACT!!!

It took me a long time to get the religion out of my head, heart, soul and body… all the while, I trust, and I take chances and I get burned… Mother, father, brother, sister… cousin or friend, even husband… trust was destroyed a little at a time to the point… Trust is not part of my vocabulary…. Makes for a more solitary life, but then… you don’t have to worry about that knife being planted in your back either… Which I took out of my back yesterday and it feels much better today….

After so much physical and psychological damage done to me as a person and veteran… I have no reason to trust anyone, including my husband… yea I get it, that shouldn’t be that way… then you haven’t read the blog and are making assumptions and you know what they say about that word…. ASS…….

Will I ever trust people again… NO… I have no reason to… No human on this planet has done anything for me, that made me want to live in this world… only one person has made that possible…

ME…. I trust me, I believe in me and as for the rest of humanity… well, it’s their brains, their lives and them making assumptions about what anyone else thinks or believes…  I will keep that circle of trust down to one…

Me…

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