Love these AHA moments…

TENs units… you see them on TV all the time… think the Shauq is the one doing the commercial, except now they are battery operated with no wires I guess….

What has this to do with the aha moment… holy crap on a cracker… 1978, in my military medical records… they assign me a TENs unit and I wear that damn thing for a couple of weeks… and they did that more than once till about 1982, just before I got pushed out and you know what… it did nothing for me, because even when it was turned up, it caused pain, no relief….

Okay let me explain… I have known since high school I had some kind of nerve damage and didn’t really understand what that all meant, until I studied more medicine… I mean it’s not like I had time on my hands to do research back then… I was a working mom…

Because of my job in the military as a dental assistant, I did all of the job, except make dentures or crowns, etc… so I had my hands in all of the dental field… surgery was my favorite…

Well that job takes you being in a specific position as you work on patients and all of a sudden I am having issues with my nerves, numbness, etc… and that was about the time I started to really feel the neuropathy… I had pushed my body too hard… 1977, child-birth, 3 months later basic training and it had only been 10 years since the last brain injury… yep, I screwed myself and didn’t know it… remember… I just learned of the TBI’s last year…. and I asked mother… she refuses to talk… christians, not much you can do if they won’t talk… until they lie… then you can do something… until then… its all on me to remember….

Anyway… the doctors in the Air Force were trying to work with the issues I had, and they were on the right track… TENs is what they use on people with neuropathy… it just has to be in the right place to work on the nerves, the military didn’t place them right, because, again, none of us knew about the TBI’s or anything that happened to me as a dependent daughter of an active duty member… and back then, my dependent records might have shown something, but for some reason… they disappeared… gee go figure on that…

The aha moment just verifies the nerve damage and the fact the Air Force was aware of it, but none of us knew the cause… thus why they tried to play it off as mental at discharge… when they pushed me out…. easier than letting rape and attempted murder come out in the press…. this makes sense to me, because of how it impacts the book… this is an important memory…. I don’t write this blog for any purpose, but to keep track of all this junk my mind opens up… the puzzle is starting to take shape… and just maybe I owe a couple doctors in the Air Force a thank you… they listened…

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Author: Adorable Spite

Domestic violence is an old song, sung thru the ages like a hymn and purported to be the way christians live their lives... full of deceit, hate, bigotry and most of all fear... It is that fear that cost me my virginity, my soul and most of all my humanity... I had to fight to keep the christians hands off my soul, but they stole from my body and so did the U. S. Air Force... Rape and attempted murder... but image was more important... Vance AFB and Webb AFB... #WhyIDidntTell #MeToo TimesUP, Circle of Silence is no more....