Headaches are staying consistent…

I type that title and the right temporal lobe decides it is time to see a kaleidoscope out of my right eye…

When the headaches started, around the age of 15, give or take a year…. They didn’t last long… they bounced from one lobe to another… sometimes they made me feel a little miserable and they would fade away…. 

By the time I went active duty, the headaches would last for a few minutes… by the time I was discharged… that was up to a couple of hours…

All this time, I am getting health care, being asked questions and the one thing that sticks out the most from all these military doctors… Neurological… Between 1977 to 1987… they thought what I had was some kind of bone disease or arthritis… after that theory was blown out of the water by the San Bernardino VA…. I was to busy working and surviving, to worry about health issues of any kind… work, meant food, house and transportation… illness, meant poverty…

So I worked… I continued working until 1998 and that was when my body, my brain and my attitude was out to pasture and if ya pissed me off, well lets put it this way, this old cow grew some horns and people found out real fast, how unhappy I was with the health care system…

Now was it all the VA and Military’s fault…. YEP!  The Air Force made no attempt to inform me that I had received a traumatic brain injury… and the military did not do its job by doing a thorough and complete testing… instead, they relied on a psych exam paper test, so they had an excuse to get rid of the problem that was the mother of the child raped by the 1st sergeants son… Vance AFB image was more important than my health or my childs well-being… my heart is pounding out of my chest, remembering the cover up….

How do you think I got 100% service connected disability from the VA… I proved the Air Force lied… enough back story… back to the headaches from the multiple TBI’s….

By the time 2014 got here… I was having frequent headaches and not really getting any health care through the VA… I had pissed off so many people at El Paso VA because I made it known I pushed to get the director fired, which is a presidential appointment… and the dude was fired and my health care went into the crapper and now my records are full of personal opinions by employees at said VA… the doc here couldn’t even find health care info when she looked, there was so much rhetoric, she had to literally start from scratch on my health care… true story….

And that is where we are at… the headaches have not quit… they have been ongoing now since we arrived here in 2016… I can’t tell you why, I can only tell you… the more my head aches, the more I remember… and some how I think it is all connected…

Won’t know that for sure, until the brain MRI is done and I see the Neurologist in February of 2019… yea for prompt veteran health care….

I just keep telling myself the headaches are not a sign of anything bad… as I cross my toes, fingers, legs, eyes and spin my head… yep I’m good…

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