Remembering All and Working Not Too…

I think the lady’s name is Marylou and she has high function edetic memory ability… just like the character on Big Bang, Sheldon… They can remember every minute of their waking lives… They make a continuous star log of their lives by just using the memory ability we are all born with, but you have to work at it and then sometimes you just got to be born with it… crystal ball this kid has not…. FACT….

When the past weekend was over and the time period for 1967 to 1972 cleared up… I couldn’t see every day that had passed, but I had left myself enough bread crumbs, so many, that statement will probably become false over time…. and this is when I wish my sister and I had been close… because hubby just stares at me, because he has no clue what I am talking about, unless I connect the dots to the trauma that has been discussed…. So yea, this last weekend, lots of memories came back… but there again that is a problem and only because of this……

I am not going to have memories anywhere close or similar to the ones my siblings will have…. birthdays, holidays, deaths, births… If I was not personally involved, likely I will not remember any of it at all…. see…. that is what’s funny about memories…

I wrote that I was working daily to find ANY good memories from my childhood…. CONNECTED to the family…. and I mean mom and dad and all the brothers and sisters…. I have never felt any, nor have I seen any… But I look anyway… because if I have edetic memory, they should be there…. at least, I think it works that way… but, again always that 3 letter word…. we are talking about a severe TBI in Texas and that may have taken those good memories with it…. and I can say that…

Since leaving home at 18…. I have millions of good memories and some are connected to bad memories… the difference… I do not fear any of those memories of my adult years… Why???  Because I lived life, I didn’t fear it…. Like I feared life in a christian household… Once I got rid of the religious head fake….I started the path to waking up my brain that had been injured and no one told me about the brain injury, but mom sure like telling me dad got put in a psych ward for a while…

That has all changed, now that I have my memories back… Still, I will never understand how anyone can buy into anything Trump says… but, I look at my siblings and my mother who is still living… Well we can all see, my shelves in the living room is overflowing with christmas cards… and my phone is ringing off the hook… It is and will always be about choices… They choose to believe her and the god she forced on them as children… sorry but Jesus’ did not come from outer space… but humans did… we are made of star-dust… why do you think you need vitamins and minerals??? and besides Jesus’ had a mortal father… Science, not fantasy….

I choose truth, honesty, integrity and ethics over religion…. Happy Holidays, Merry Christmas and all the other sayings we have traditions for….

My hope, the world comes to know peace, we no longer have famine and out of control disease and humans quit wearing labels and just see another human next to them, that is just slightly different from them and wish them the best in the new year….

I got mine… Call from Hilo medical yesterday, to start the process to get the brain MRI… that is my present to me this year… Finally finding out, if CTE and Dementia are in my future or if I get to live out life-like everyone else… being happy I woke up that morning….

Happy Holidays, Mele Kalikimaka from Hawaii, and Happy New Year

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I Remember…. Margie….