Autonomic Neuropathy is Kicking Ass…

I would say around 2PM, yesterday, not feeling great from my cold that is almost done… I feel an electrical shock internally in my chest wall, and I mean deep internally…. and I felt my intestines spasm and I knew… 

In 12 hours or less, the bathroom and I were going to get real friendly… and at 1AM… the nightmare of pain and spasms started….

By 5:30AM, I was passing blood… this told me, that the spasms were so bad internally, I was in for a rough 24 hours….

Out of everything I deal with from the beatings 2 christian people did to a small child….

This is the worse of all of them…. it out does the depression, the balance and dizzy, the nausea, vomiting, headaches, weakness….

This bout of the neuropathy that is autonomic, is a hell, I wish on no one….

Let me put it this way….. Ever been pregnant and had your childbirth natural…..

Welcome to my hell…. now you understand why I never planned to have kids…. 

This has been going on since Japan….. and that damn toilet was a hole in the floor in the rice patty housing…

The best part of all this…. With the diagnosis I got in Feb of this year…. At least I know what is happening, why it is happening and I can plan my life around these events….

Imagine walking through life for the last 50 years and you are out and about and this happens…. as it progressed, by 2000, I was staying in my home, more than I was out and about….

I live on Hawaii… In order for me to enjoy this place…. I have to understand what my body is doing, so that I am always prepared for the worse and can enjoy myself, when it’s at its least invasive…..

This has been my life now for 18 years…. We have lived in Washington, Arkansas, New Mexico and now Hawaii…. and to this day, I will get lost going out my door, because what I see most of…

The inside of that door….

Thank you christians, who think taking a belt to a child is holier than the life you brought into this world…. sure makes me wonder, who did you lie to, steal from, rape, beat and murder… to abuse your children who are born innocent….

Until you brainwash them with your sins and god…. You really can not fix stupid…

I just wear lots of garlic when they are around…. Christians that is…

True story….lol…

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I Remember… Margie…