Neuropathy and it’s unpredictable pattern…

Nothing more frustrating than trying to pick out a pattern, when dealing with a chronic illness…

When the balance issue started as a teenager and the sleep paralysis, it got scary for me…

Had kids, and went into the military, now that was when things got weird, scary and above all frustrating…

Leave service and work for the next 15 years and all of a sudden my world falls apart, health wise…

Drop to 115 pounds and I am in my 40’s, with grandkids, and no clue or understanding of what was happening…

Spokane VA put me through so many tests and every diagnosis they gave me was wrong…

Fast forward 20 years later…. and here we are and there are still a couple of questions I want answered and they are connected to the neuropathy, because when you get down to brass tacks… It is all neurological… and I ask myself, shake my head, roll my eyes… why did it take from 1978 to now to get answers…??? That answer is easy…

The veterans administration is one of the most corrupt and inept organization the government ever came up with and I am walking, living proof of that…

Like I said, I have a full copy of my medical records from 1971 to now… the only thing I couldn’t get, my maternity records… so my childbirth in 74 and 77, nothing available… I know, the VA tried to get them and they had to go on my memory of those pregnancies…

So here we are… We know I have abnormal brain waves… duh!!! and we know I have Autonomic and Peripheral Neuropathy….

I just still have questions… why, does my body send a signal to my digestive system and it feels like someone just put a defibrillator on that organ and shocks the hell out of it and I spend the next 12 to 26 hours, either sitting or bending over the porcelain throne… this is something that has been going on, at least since my military time… Can not say 100% sure it went on during my teen years, I think it did, but I still have a little chaos with those memories…

Anyway, this last episode… Finally quit last night… after the time on the throne, the rest of it has been irritability and lack of appetite and sweating… sweating for no other reason, than that is what the body did… 

It is draining, physically… mentally not so much… so seizures just don’t fit the bill on these symptoms…

One thing about it, when this does go on… the headaches back off… they won’t bounce from one lobe to the other… if anything, it always gives me headaches in the right lobe only and that is the lobe I think that had the severe brain injury in Texas in 1968….

MRI is in a few days… so hoping they let me take a peek… I did some reading on the procedure and what the brain will look like for certain reasons…. they have no clue I have knowledge… so hoping if I geek out, I will get a peek, since the neurology appointment isn’t until Feb….sigh, health care for veterans hurry up and wait and wait and wait…

And people wonder why veterans die…. because America bailed on us… much like what Trump is doing to America… lol, now that is what I call Karma… America bailed on Veterans and now the leader of America bailed on them… funny if you look at from my perspective… okay warped and twisted, what do you expect, look where I came from…. christians!!!

Makes you wonder, if Trump leaves us so vulnerable, that another country like Russia, China or N. Korea, take the advantage and try to invade us… if you wanted to take down a world power… with Brexit and the chaos in Europe going on, unstable environment in the middle east and Trump throwing America under the bus…

Yep, we are assuredly ripe for an invasion… Ever live someplace where war was going on??? I can promise you, you have no clue how ugly life can get… just because people buy into fake news… brother will turn on brother… all because people like Trump are not in it for country… but for money and power… and ignorant that buy into the lies…

Like I said before, next year should be real interesting… World wide interesting…. I really do miss traveling around the world and experincing life, not just read about it…

Now, it’s just not safe to travel at all, because Trump threw the world under the bus by pulling us out of the middle east… Terrorism will take this opportunity and 9/11 will happen again, but worse….

Yep, you can’t fix stupid, stupid has to live it, only than will they blame everyone but themselves… and people wonder how we get to this kind of situation… easy…

To own your life, you got to be an adult, regardless the age… taking responsibility is something people don’t do anymore, because they would rather blame it on evil than the humans that performed the act…. Yep, next year will be an intersting one….

I just hope some adults show up and fix it, before it gets out of hand…. Looking at current leaders, I really got my doubts about adults… To be adult, you compromise for the good of all, not just yourself… gee that does sound like Trump, self first… America last….

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I Remember… Margie….

Sgt. USAF DAV