Neuropathy, TBI Headaches & MRI tomorrow…

I am so ready to talk with the professionals… The more I understand what I have been living with, the easier it is to deal with the issues… I mean come on, it’s not like I got a say in what my body does… That right was taken at 6 years old and the first severe beating…WHY

After this beating, the beginning of the end was already in motion, because as you can tell there is no cast on my arm and I assure, the bones in my hand are broken and the little finger, healed badly and now I may need surgery because the pain 58 years later, passed annoying a long time ago… Can’t even use that finger and typing, oh joy…

The MRI is tomorrow… I probably won’t be told anything and I seriously doubt they will let me take a peek… and it is outside the radiology I did in the military… I can read all I want, doesn’t make me knowledgeable… that comes with training and lots of practice… but I kind of hope they let me peek…

This last episode that started over a week ago, has finally transitioned into the headache scenario… though it is not bouncing from one lobe to the other… it’s still hanging in the right lobe and that is the lobe, we think that got the severe TBI in Texas, when dad got locked up….

I catch myself wondering, if I hadn’t been born self-aware, would I have been able to accomplish any of this progress on my own, just because of the IQ factor…

I have gone as far as my knowledge will take me, and so far I have been 100% correct on my own diagnosis… but the brain, that is such a complicated, and difficult subject to understand, let alone comprehend… and that is why I bit my tongue, played the good girl, so that I could get the medical side to listen and once they started listening… other than having to wait for VA approval for this priority 1 100% disabled veteran… it’s hurry up and wait… and thankfully the waiting is coming to an end… 

MRI of the brain tomorrow and that gives the Neurologist time to order more tests if needed before I see him in Feb…. yep, heart rate just picked up, this is getting exciting, after waiting so many decades to get answers…

The sad part of this is… My mother is living and refuses to give me any information and my aunt is living and she ran with her tail between her legs… she left her lies behind her… people really do treat you different if they think you are stupid…

But silent they are and tests, lots already done and I know, their will be more if that MRI shows what I think it will show…  so the tests a necessary evil, because christian women are more scared of telling me how they tortured and hurt kids, than helping me… ever notice those that believe in gods, fear life, more than they do committing a crime against humanity….

I think the cat is finally out of the bag… about who is stupid and who isn’t… any guess’…

Boo…

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 I Remember… Margie…

Sgt. USAF DAV