Digesting the fact that all I said is true…

Put a little mammas & papas playing in the background, to help calm the soul that wants so much to jump on a plane and kick people’s ass… flat-out, that much anger in the soul right now…

All because Don Bagwell thought he had a right to beat a child brutally and his wife, the master manipulator and liar was first in line… I told Mike, knowing the truth does not make this any easier, it gives me something else instead…

It gives me peace… Peace of mind, knowing all that I had suspected since I went active duty was right and every doctor I saw from 1977 to 2016… got it wrong… Every VA doctor at Spokane, Seattle, Oregon, Arkansas, New Mexico, Arizona & Texas… all wrong…. Every military doctor I saw at Vance AFB, Sheppard AFB, Yokota AFB, Yokuska and Tripler on Hawaii… got it wrong… The civilian doctors in Okanogan county and Wenatchee… got it wrong…

It took a young man to kill 26 people in Sutherland Springs… Texas…. Those lives lost because the Air Force covered up another scandal… opened the door to the scandal the Air Force covered up at Webb AFB, in Big Springs, Texas in 1968… 26 people died on Nov 5, 2017 and on Nov 7, 2017… 

Margie woke up… and what a wake up call it has been….

This journey through anger, confusion, depression, abandonment and most of all wanting to know why….

Only when I finally got the doctor to listen this year… did the ball get rolling… 2 years on Hawaii and she finally listened…

EEG… abnormal brain waves and I said… no seizures…

MRI… evidence of an old stroke and damage to Frontal, parietal & Right brain lobes… with damage to my ocular section of my brain, which explains the vision issues I have reported for the last 20 years to all the eye doctors… all VA…. 

This is my future, because I checked the MRI report against the injuries I know I sustained and once I evaluated the issues associated with such damage… it is a sobering realization of what my future holds… but not surprised… informed, I have always been… even if no one else believed… it was what I thought that mattered and still does… College educated only means you passed tests and I saw lots of college educated morons, who didn’t have a clue…

My ability to do things like play the piano, sewing, knitting, making fine jewelry and my favorite, working with clay…. Fine motor skills that I have been losing for the last few years… all my stuff is packed, including my key board… I can’t do the things I love anymore… that includes playing on my fancy computer…

Now it is focus on maintaining my home and staying mobile… Fine motor skills can be lost and you can still function in life… but…. this little thing I am doing now… typing… it too will fade into a task, I no longer can do…

Getting the MRI report, just affirmed what I already knew and had been adjusting my life too for the last 10 years…

When we go anyplace or drive around… I never waste much time on the phone… I look and I memorize what I see, because I know in my heart…

My mother took my vision over the boob incident…. I started going blind at 8 years old… because my mother and little sister were embarrassed over what kids do… play…

TimesUp #MeToo WhyIDidntTell

I Remember… Margie…

Sgt. USAF DAV