Symptoms I have lived with….edited

DAVF, it’s funny or ironic, I read about this stuff so long ago… and again it amazes me that my mind remembers anything I read or comprehend… thus the brain… the most fascinating muscle we got and the least understood…

The symptoms I have lived with since at least 1978…. or earlier…

First symptom I got; the worse sinus issues and they did allergy testing and so it went for about 30 years thinking it was allergies… I gave up on those meds before we moved here, so for about 4 years… No allergy meds and guess what, no allergy symptoms…and Hawaii is always in bloom….. sigh…

Second symptom I got; headaches… now as to when those started, I have to say, I have had headaches since the boob incident… so we will put that at 1962 or there abouts…

Third symptom I got; balance issues… those started around 1977 when I went into the Air Force at basic training… a incident there told me of my left side, balance and weakness…may have started as early as Japan… after that beating…

Fourth symptom I got; dizzy lizzy… and I would literally bounce off the walls, walking down the hall of our home… the worse was 2013, before our road trip to help with Mikes dad and the doc put me on steroids… not realizing what was wrong… but guess what it worked… but our return trip and I am driving and have an episode and this was March 2014 and that was the first time anything happened remotely like a seizure, scared both of us to the core….

Fifth symptom I got; and this one started about 20 years ago and it was my vision, first it was off and on and not real often… now its double vision, blurred vision and driving is not something I am willing to do unless I have no other choice….

Sixth symptom I got; the weird pain than transverse up my neck, into the right lobe and works it way to the frontal and parietal lobes… and that headache makes my kaleidoscope issues and really hurts, makes the eyes tear too….

Seventh symptom I got; this is the weirdest of all… the body melt down… when I am on or over the toilet and this last episode lasted 26 hours and left me exhausted for days…. and when this one happened a few months ago… the body heat came on and made living here on Hawaii awful, until we put AC in….

Eight symptom… Ringing in the ears… Now I associated this with the thyroid med and the recent surgery I had in 96…. well guess what… looks like that one I was wrong on… and I still have it and it can be a symphony in my ears and makes talking on the phone a nightmare and thus why the kids and I communicate in writing… I always use the speaker part of any phone…never hold it to my ear and the VA wrote some nasty things about phone use…. looks like poo poo is on their face now…

During the MRI, the episode with the body heat happened and it came from the brain, because I could feel a panic attack starting and that was when the drug the doctor gave me kicked in and I actually dozed off… so, definitely will be sedated for the next test… because freaked is an understatement….

I am beyond terrified and it has been hard not to break down and just let loose with the crying and it is hard on hubby…. because he knows, I do know what I am talking about… if I didn’t…

He would be dead… he will tell you all his doctors missed his heart failure… it was me that insisted on testing and we found out he was near death, any activity he did could have killed him… his primary vessel was 100% blocked to the heart and two others were 75% blocked… his open heart surgery, gave him back his life…. so stupid… nope, never have been… but people treat me like I am and after this MRI, there will never be anymore of that kind of behavior from anyone I am paying a service for….

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I Remember… Margie…

Sgt. USAF DAV