Symptoms pick up pace…

Other than freaking my daughter out about what I am dealing with… just me and hubby concerned about the difficulties I am now experiencing…

This morning after writing the one for DAV disabled veterans and how to fight… I noticed the difficulty in the left hand and making it work with the key board…

I started typing, I think in high school around 16 years old… and by the time I started working civil service in 83, I could type 135 words a minute… Now I am lucky if I can do about 80 words a minute and I think that is probably high…

The disconnect between the thought process and the arm and hand, I thought for the longest was because of the neuropathy and in a way it is… the bleed or fistula is probably making things worse now… I am betting this thing let us know 10 years ago in New Mexico it was messing with my brain and body… but no one at the El Paso VA or Las Cruces VA did their job… for them, a dead veteran is one less pain in the ass… it’s about pay checks for these employees and that is a fact and O’Rourke, might want to investigate my case from 2016… he was misled by the establishment and I have proof of that by the MRI done on the 26th of Dec of this year…

So, No, he will not get my vote for president… he needs to be more hands on and not let his lackies do the job… he was flat-out lied to and I have the proof… ya know they put me on FOX news, when I lived in Las Cruces… that was the spring of 2016… but it never made national news like the dumb ass who was trying to get a VA appointment… yep, men versus women… sigh….

Anyway… sleep is not good and the left side of the brain has had a headache since last night…

Hubby knows what to do and now that I understand my condition, it makes more sense… it really is hard, when I am so mentally tired, to make sense of anything I am trying to learn and confusion happens real easy when the headaches are brutal, like they are now… and 600MG of NSAID later and the right side quits hurting but the left is still banging away…ugh!!!

What I understand about this condition now DAVF… it just means that between the tissue that covers the brain and our dermis is called a dura, so you have two layers of tissue between your face and the brain… well that is where the fistula is at, in me… now where is located… wow I haven’t got back into the report and disseminated that yet… this stuff is way beyond dental radiology, but it shocked both hubby and I that I was dead on when I looked at the MRI and I picked out the same thing the radiologists did… I just didn’t understand what I was seeing totally… so yea for this IQ, some…..

So this fistula thing has rerouted the blood from the brain and the heart… and that explains the headaches, and vision issues and ear issues and sinus issues and the procedure to fix it… scary but really just a line they put in my vein through the groin and they fix it that way or endo surgery or they radiate it to close off its access to the blood flow…surgery with open head is possible, and I hope not… I have been growing my hair out since hubby had a triple by pass and I cut mine off in a crew cut… down to my waist now… longest I ever have had it.. not sure I would look good bald… lol

Can it kill, yes… is that what is happening… again, we are getting into science that I have not researched much of and it does take me many readings to comprehend, digest and extrapolate into making sense for my situation and that is when you scream uncle and wait to see the kid with the medical license… I may know before then… but I am realistic… I am only so smart and the brain has it’s actions that I may not agree with… like all the issues I am having to just function daily… hubby stayed in the kitchen last night, because I had trouble picking things up and doing what I have done millions of times… if this is what dementia is like… I hope like hell I never go there…

Everyone involved is doing all they can to get the 3-D fiesta MRI scan arranged and that will give them more detailed information about the fistula, and how to go about stopping it from doing any more damage… the scan shows blood stain on the brain… is it new, old… they will tell me that, after this next scan…

All these symptoms hit hard in 1978, I had been active duty for about a year… and no one sent me to neurology… not the military and not the VA…. I really would love to have those moronic doctors in a room, just so I could line them up in dunking booths and drown their sorry ass’s!!! yep, just a little frustrated… this headache on the left side is annoying…

So now it is wait on the Hilo VA office to make travel arrangements for me and hubby, because Oahu is where the test will be, because being medicated, he will have to travel with me… I already know… knock me out… I am that freaked over going in the MRI tube again… I barely kept it together this week, when the pill finally kicked in just before they finished… this next one is too important not to get it done, just because I am scared…

So hopefully in the next few weeks the scan will get done… neurology is the 7th of Feb and it will be nice to finally ask the questions, I can’t answer….ya know the media could care less about rape, attempted murder and government cover up… but they will put a male veteran on TV who can’t get an appt back in 2016 at the local VA… just WOW!!!

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I Remember… Margie…

Sgt. USAF DAV