Understanding the symptoms of a DAVF (fistula)…edited

Long before I had a clue something was wrong… I knew something was wrong… and it seems all the things I have done through my life, is what gave me my life and not death via a ruptured fistula in my head…

I wrote a while back that I had faced death on more occasions than even I can count and that is the truth… between all the abuse in the Bagwell household and never being informed of the brain injuries… I was thrown to the wolves… because it was all about image and Don getting his military retirement… funny, the bastard lied about his service and I find that out when my brother David sent me a copy of Don’s service record… got it someplace on a file on the pc drive… but look at it again… no thanks… I know all I need to know…

On more than one occasion I have had male and females act like I do not deserve to be a veteran or get benefits… Until the rape of my son and the attempted murder of both boys… my career was hunky dory… within months after my re-enlistment… I was being pushed out to cover up the crimes the military never got the FBI involved with… all about Vance AFB base image… and my life and my children’s had zero value…

It is so mind-boggling, I have all my medical records from 1971 to now, except my pregnancies… and I never had a neurological issue during those times, thankfully…

But, the point, none of my medical records state I was in a bad car accident, injured on active duty or had any trauma of any kind… so from 1971 to now… we know this stroke they found on the 23rd of Dec of this year… is from my childhood… and I should have been medically discharged from the military…

What gets me… I made it through basic training and all the PT stuff and did my job… all the while recovering from a stroke that happened less than 10 years before I went active duty… so if you think this bitch isn’t capable of putting your ass in the ground… bring it on… and hubby will tell you, start running… because of that brain injury, fear of other people has never and will never be an issue and self-defense is an art I learned a long time ago, because I knew, no human would ever touch me in violence again… yep still a little angry and letting it out… that is healthy… at least I am not giving someone a permanent brain injury with my anger… sometimes being an adult is just that…

While we were in the store, just a little while ago, an episode hit and I felt the fistula pulsate… something I had learned decades ago to ignore, only now, it makes me hot and sick to my stomach and causes issues that make it best that I am not alone… hope the VA gets this done quickly…

I think my borrowed time is coming to an end… if it does… I hope you will spread this story, so that the corruption in the Air Force and the VA system is brought to light… no child should endure what this child endured…

Maggi6yr

aren’t those bruises pretty…. 8 years old and gets a brain injury because Freda is bat shit crazy and always has been… may she rot in the hell she built… make ya proud Peggy…???

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I Remember… Margie…

Sgt USAF DAV