Why Hypnosis will not work…

With the MRI results this week, what I thought about being hypnotized is correct… I think, and I am going to write this based on my memory and these assumptions and we will see down the road, just how smart I am or am not…lol…

My supposition about the hypnosis is this…

After the beating in Texas, which is likely the place I had the stroke and got the dent in my skull, the memories were scattered and disorganized…

After the Japan beating about a year later… that scared the crap out of the parents and they didn’t touch me again, because they kept me home, no doctors and I was probably bleeding into my brain and I say that because of the symptoms that started after that… and I did for decades think it was flu, but once the memories came back these last 12 months, I know that is not the case… it was another head injury and it freaked Freda out…not stupid and cunning is the woman and zero heart…

That was about the time I started having balance issues and the memory of high school and the balance beam came into play… and a new symptom, sleep paralysis at school and home… freaky when it happened… and no Delta waves in the EEG this summer… so narcolepsy not a factor, but head injury and a pulse that started on the right side of my brain… yep….

The fistula, they are trying to get me in for a scan, before it ruptures… and the way it hurts, I think we are getting this fixed just in the nick of time… but psychic about this thing in my skull, nope, only aware of the symptoms, pain and issues….that started after the Japan beating…

So with that little bit of back story… by the time Okinawa happened another blow to the head… I lost most of my childhood and some of the first year back in America… some has come back, but not all and I know it will not come back and hypnosis will not help… Why???

The MRI this week… it shows I had a stroke, it shows I have damage to the right, frontal and parietal lobe… it shows what Freda (mother) refused to ever tell me about…!!!!! so angry about that… she put my babies at risk!!!! and my life as recent as this year, when I had major surgery… but this one came out different… Why???

I told anyone and everyone involved, even though I had ZERO PROOF, they listened and I said these words…. I have multiple TBI’s from childhood and anesthesia has made my life beyond miserable after every operation I have had and we are up to a dozen plus…

These people listened… and they gave me just what I needed for the surgeon to do her job and when I woke up in recovery… I have never felt better in my life after any surgical procedure… and all because in my heart I knew I had been brutally beaten and left for dead more than once in a christian military home….

When I stood in Fredas kitchen 2010 and told her I was missing memory, she said… “Some things are best not remembered”…. when I confronted Peggy about her lies… she said she had an infarct…. but the lies, she put in writing and contradicted herself as recent as 11 months ago… My brother Larry… he thinks I need to save my soul….

These people knew I had suffered a severe brain injury and the cowards they are… none of them had the guts or balls to own their behavior in the destruction and death of….

Margie….

The stroke took some of my memories… I never got any therapy or treatment and I have never been told by any family member of my injuries… most of those people are dead, except for the ones I mentioned oh and my Aunt Margaret… we call her Tiny… she knows…

So hypnosis can not restore the area of the brain-damaged by the stroke… these people who call themselves christians… stole the life of a child they envied and hated for what ever reason you hate kids for… I just call it cowardice and mental illness and the fact…

They may have stolen my childhood… but that bucket of shit I keep falling in and living the lifestyle most Americans only dream about… got a feeling that next big check for the trans-mesh settlement is going to make us smell more like magnolias… and as for going after the government… we have already contacted a lawyer…

All anyone in my family had to do… Own their lives, instead they hide behind a god that is not real… because no human ever walked this earth without a mommy and daddy and both of those were 100% earthling…

You cannot hate and fear what you did not know… now I know and all I have is disgust and pity for the weak-minded people who hurt a little girl for doing what she was taught…

Tell the truth… Truth does matter… but not to christians…

TimesUp #MeToo WhyIDidntTell

I Remember… Margie….