Memories are fading….edited…

I watched as Don (dad) develop dementia and I know Freda (mom) has a form of it also… and hers is likely frontal lobe dementia… and I worked with patients with Dementia… so I have some experience with dementia and how each person is different, but the disease is not… that is what this fistula is doing to me… FYI.. both parents, had issues that caused their decline, DNA says no genetic predisposition for dementia…

The fistula is taking my past from me, more and more daily…

I will be talking with Mike and telling him a story from my kids childhood and I have to stop, because the rest of the memory is not there or I can’t access it…

Last night in the shower, had an excellent topic to write about and started formulating it when it was gone and 11 hours later, I still can not remember what I had been thinking about…

The fistula causes rapid dementia issues and I noticed that last year when I tried to get the doctor to listen and mental health was no help… honest why do these people get degrees???

Anyhow, the symptoms are annoying, but 100% indicative of dementia, but the headaches and all the other symptoms, I know it is the fistula…

So every day, I see a little more of me, walk out the door and I wonder, will it ever come back home and all of this could have been prevented…. if only…

Someone in the VA system from 1984 to now had listened… California, Oregon, Washington, Arkansas, New Mexico, Texas and Hawaii…

VA never listened, I was dismissed, because I am a woman and not a man… if this does not show you the discrimination in the VA system against women… well, they are your mothers, daughters and grandmothers…. hope you enjoyed them while they lived… because the VA is doing all it can to end our lives and I am living proof of that…

Am I scared to die, no, I have done it before, it is darkness and nothing after the brain and heart quit… so these stories you hear about heaven… that is the brain in its death throes and it just makes it easier to die than fight it… much like dogs when they are ready to die, we lost 3 in the past few years, and each and every one of them left the house to find that spot to curl up and die…

So have I… but I will always have hope till that happens…

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I Remember… Margie…

Sgt. USAF DAV