No headaches, kind of….

About 2 hours ago I took a 600mg NSAID and it gave me pain relief, but it never impacts the headaches… in fact, I can feel a real faint throb in the right temporal area of my skull just between by eye and ear… something that I have felt for at least 49 years… only lately it has gotten worse…

So when the headache I had, spread from right to left and over the parietal… I kind of thought I would be semi headache free and I am… working so hard to recognize the pattern, so when they see me for this next test I can tell them… had lots of tachycardia, which has also subsided… so I have been paying attention to the signs for a while…

The throb in the fistula or vein or artery there in my temple area… is an old friend… and when I complained about it for 20 years and got no place and we are talking Air Force, Army, Navy, VA & Private doctors… and somehow, no one put it together… and I blame that on the screwed up patient system the VA set up that has so much 3rd party rhetoric in our medical records, no one can find anything… that is why this doctor here started from scratch… so that may explain her delay in believing my story… doubt if she doubts me now….

As for the throb…when the headache was finished with it traversing from the carotid artery, up the neck and through the lobes… I was left wanting to puke… so yea I get why they think seizure.. instead of an electrical malfunction, mine is a blood malfunction and the veins and arteries are not in a happy state and haven’t been since Japan…

I am tired, I have been real tired lately, but sleep, not getting much, can’t breathe at night, or the headache and tachycardia like last night interfere with sleep….

This brings back when it first started and bothered me… but this time is different, because it is impacting my motor skills and my memories and right now the head is clear, but the fistula is throbbing ever so gently and hasn’t stopped now for months….

I know the VA is closed today, but I had hope to hear from someone… it is scary, knowing this thing is going weird on me and nothing I can do to stop it… 

I think we picked a bad time to not have smokable pot around… good thing hubby kept the leaf… being calm I have found makes a big difference… If I talk about a memory that is violent and involved, it triggers the headaches… or last night we tried to watch a movie the new Wonder Woman… I couldn’t deal with the excitement… something I learned to tamp down a long time ago… funny, how my lack of knowledge back then, still protected me…

So, this little break it is giving me… I accept… and I am trying so hard to just stay stress free and relaxed and just not get excited… which sucks for hubby…. wink…

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I Remember… Margie…

Sgt. USAF DAV

I saw on the news about SAC Strategic Air Command, put out a tweet about dropping bombs… when our own military makes jokes about war, it makes me wonder, when did Trump get in their head and should the rest of us be worried… Air Force, is the most corrupt organization out their… I know… the damage to my brain is a testament to that corruption…. and the death of 26 people in Sutherland Springs, Texas… need I say more???