When Fear is in control…

My big boy just under 100 pounds, he would protect me to his death…I fear nothing with him an his sister to protect me… Watching him deal with the noise of fireworks, because he can not reason the sound of the explosions…

It makes me appreciate being human, with a brain that allows me to reason out this brain injury, though I did not cause it an those that did will never own their behavior…

But watching my dog deal with fear, makes me realize, yea things are not great, but I am aware and knowledgeable and hopefully smart enough to catch this problem in time and I need to take my fear and own it… Because I read the science and understand it, and there isn’t anything I can do….

I raised my voice snd it was barely heard… Scary to know the VA has my life in their corrupt hands and negligence is the norm….

I just hope I am smart enough to keep them from being the cause of my death…

I have medicare an Mike is prepared to take charge If I cannot protect myself…

Scary all that I have read and how rare these things are…But I have never been wrong in 50 years, I do not plan to start now….

Fear is the mind killer, I will face my fear and let it pass through me, so that only I remain….

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I Remember… Margie…

Sgt USAF DAV