Stroke, are they sure it’s that old???

I question it being as old as they think, only because… how could I go through life and not know I had a stroke and never did any kind of physical therapy after I started making memories… so how are they so sure it’s as old as 67???

And I start thinking… when did I really start making memories after Texas… because we know I lost time on Japan and after the blow on Okinawa…

Only reason I question the age of the stroke… how the hell did I live and make it through basic training 10 years after the incident and still have no clue physically and I remember… the balance beam in high school and the obstacle course at basic and other little things that start to add up…

But again I ask… why didn’t I notice the marked weakness on my left side until this year…

Because I never slowed down I think… Mike will tell you, I can not sit through a movie or TV show or anything like that… I am up and moving after 30 mins or less…. and It’s always been that way…

I think, if I push myself to remember… I think I always knew I had a weakness on my left side, I just never questioned it… if you don’t know, how can you ask…but I was also told not to touch myself, yada, yada, yada…  but the signs were there and the doctors missed them….

Only when I had a Rectocell procedure this year… did I find out, because the surgeon made me swear upon my soul, I would be down for 6 months straight… were I could not even pick up anything heavier than a gallon of milk… and not even that the first 3 months… when she gave me my 6 month graduation, she said I could start working out, because I was having issues with the left leg… then it was the left arm and that is when the aha moment happened…

I had a stroke… and the MRI confirmed it…

Do you have any clue how hard it is to wrap your head around the fact that a 5 foot 6 inch woman did this to this child… and you would never know just how corrupt she was, because she built this world that doesn’t exist… I know, I lived in Mena, and made damn sure no one knew I was related to the Bagwells…

In fact, think hubby and I will do our chief of police story for audio… promised a good one for the new year… wonder if he would have been so apologetic if he knew I was Don Bagwells oldest daughter… they all knew the Bagwells…, the police that is…

Anyway, the stroke thing… It just shocks me that I recognize I had one and that it was likely related to a brain injury… just had to have MRI proof… and that we have…

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I Remember… Margie…

Sgt. USAF DAV