Symptoms not fun….

The blood pressure is staying up there, both upper and lower…. but not super dangerous… the heart rate is the one that scared me… mine usually is around 83 or lower, I know my heart is healthy, or it was… not so sure now… but that may be fear talking…

Tachycardia has been a  real issue and very uncomfortable…  I am monitoring all the numbers… have no choice… get out of bed and have stroke level blood pressure, you freak a little…

Not much we can do, no phone call today from the VA… so I expect to have a stroke or heart attack before the VA address’ the crisis… like I said… piss someone off on Hawaii in the VA system and you’ll be dead, because honestly they do not care… that is why I wanted a doctor who would make use of my medicare… and if no phone call tomorrow morning, that is what I am authorizing the doctor to do… use my medicare and that means, the flight to Oahu and transportation I will have to pay for… disability income is okay, but we are not rich…

I am already out over $20,000 in health care expenses and that is since the VA awarded me 100% service connected… not what I want to do, make more debt… but life to us has value… but not to the American people, unless it’s their lives…

The BP still way above normal… the heart rate better… the pain in the head, I am aware and a new symptom that tells me I have blood clots in the left side of my body…

The clock is ticking and if the VA on Hawaii has its say… they will let the time run out…

I may never get to meet my new great-grandson… just because I told an employee what I thought… Guess free speech is for the religious bigots… or the GOP…

Maybe truth doesn’t matter…. I am no longer enjoying any of this… nada…

TimesUp #MeToo WhyIDidntTell

I Remember… Margie… hope someone does…

Sgt. USAF DAV