Visit with the Doctor… ruined my day…

My biggest pet peeve with the medical profession… They forgot they are the medical profession and if you don’t like people getting upset, cantankerous or pushy… Then why are you in the field of medicine!!! We are sick or we wouldn’t be in their office!!!

First thing an employee did, want me to fill out papers that had zero to do with my health care, so I declined to participate in the states data analysis… Office was hot and I am already sweating bullets and was barely able to eat the few bites of breakfast and it was fast approaching my throat, so we went outside to wait and an employee, who was beyond sweet, comforted me, calmed me and it helped… then I got called back to see the doctor…

That employee went out of their way to let me know how upset the doctor had been, in tears, yada, yada, yada… but didn’t ask me how I was doing!!! So that set the stage for the next attack and that was by the doctor… if you could only hear the sigh I let loose…

When I first started seeing this doctor, I didn’t have Mike come in the room with me… I thought for sure I had a doctor, that I could trust and not be ignored… I was so wrong…

When she started dismissing my complaints and I knew she was forgetting the previous appointments or hadn’t made notes… that is when hubby started going in the room with me as a witness… First thing you do to protect yourself, regardless of the circumstances… Document and witness’s…

Mikes jaw muscle flexed a few times when the doctor started tearing into me today… and I posted the letter I faxed to the office, you can go back and read it… this fax I sent…

All I did is spell it out… listen to me or their will be consequences…. and instead she took it as an insult or personal or what ever… and went on to tell me how she went home and cried that night…

Sorry water works never worked on me before and they sure as hell aren’t going to work now… WHY??? Because she is still dismissing me and telling me things that are not accurate…

I get she is trying to calm and reassure me… but to do that… you have to ask me questions and when I told her of the mini strokes, again, she did not ask me the symptoms, all of which are exactly like the medical journals quote… but I was dismissed and not asked those symptoms, so I gave her all the symptoms I had been dealing with… and again I was dismissed… beyond upset no… but so very disappointed with adults who can not be adults when dealing with patients…

So by the time we left the office… I had a prescription for high blood pressure, which I may or may not take… since I do not know what I am talking about… even though I have been living it for 50 years…

I mean that is like listening to Trump who knows all and does all… that is beyond insanity, that is down right ludicrous!!!

I spent the next hour talking with Mike, and he let it be known how much he was upset by what happened… why??? Because he has been in that room with me since my 3rd appointment with that doctor….

She says she has done all I asked… Do you know how long it took for her to order that EEG!!! I started talking about the injuries and head from the get go…

When I worked with patients in the military, I listened and I heard, because I knew what it was like to be nervous or afraid of health issues… It was our job to catch oral cancer, and other illness’ and insure our patients were informed and most of all listened too….

That is not my situation… In the past, I would have told the doctor to bite my ass and never go back… and by biting my ass… I just wouldn’t go back and see them… and that ultimately bite me in the ass, because of where we are at this stage of the process…

When doctors do not listen, and I mean really listen… patients die… I know, I watched it happen more than once when I worked in the medical field… and I think that is why I made myself vocal… because I didn’t want to be that patient that died, because of a doctors ego…

You know… only the employee that came outside, gave me a hug and actually showed some humanity…

The doctor and the assistant… mainly wanted to make sure I knew how upset they and the doctor were over my fax…

Only in America have I experienced this kind of inhumane behavior towards patients… by doctors and nurses… and used too, I would just walk away, because the conflict they created by ignoring me, the patient… was not worth anything… not even my health… and I am so on the fence on that same subject at this very moment…

The doctor says, the damage in the brain is small and it is old and likely there is no fistula???

I am so sorry, but when is any brain damage small and when did humans get X-ray vision…. and I am missing memory, a person with my memory ability doesn’t have holes in their memories… but I do…

One part of me hopes she is right and knows more about my own body than I do…

The other part of me hopes the Cerebral angiography shows exactly what I have been saying all along and I can make the bigots in that doctor’s office kiss the white ass I have!!!

The test will not be on Oahu… They are doing it in Kona, on the other side of the island… so that is a bonus in itself… and that test wouldn’t be done, if they weren’t looking for bleeds and drains, because of the fistula… and fistulas can be asymptomatic for decades before they do anything… My head has bothered me since 1968!!!

Long story short… I am hoping the doctor is right, but she has not addressed all the issues I have, and I pointed that out from the appointment I had this summer, when the doctor had a migraine and shut me down in the exam room…. and yep… hubby was with me…

I have had more opportunities to sue and win massive amounts of money… The only reason I don’t… because I have values, ethics and above all morales… I am not sue happy and never have been… I took on the trans-mesh only because of the damage the VA ignored for years… and that was 10 years ago and I still haven’t seen a dime…

Yet I was judged in that doctor’s office today and it just showed me how bigoted people really are, when they base an opinion on very little facts… My blog is my diary and the doctor is more than welcomed to read it and she will see… what she said in the exam room today was a load of bull shit…

I do not lie, simply because, I can not remember the lie once it leaves my lips… Truth has always been my path… I have no interest in changing that for anyone… christian, doctor or friend or kid…  I will not change my values, just to make someone else happy…

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I Remember… Margie… I am beginning to think the government would just as soon she be forgotten…

Sgt. USAF DAV